I had started to bleeding two days before. On Friday morning, we went to the hospital and they told me I was having a miscarriage. The strange thing about it was that when they did the scan, the fetus was only nine weeks, but by my dates when I took the pregnancy test, I was twelve weeks.
The last thing I remember before my experience was sitting on the toilet and saying to my partner that I wasn't feeling very well. The next thing I knew I was drifting, gliding, weightless as if in outer space. I was surrounded by an intense, warming feeling. There was no light, just the most amazing dark blue color everywhere. I was aware that I wasn't breathing but it didn't matter. All I felt was love, joy, happiness, and every wonderful emotion you could feel all at once. My thoughts had changed - not what I thought, but how I thought. Each thought was like a stone dropped into a still pool of water as if time had slowed (maybe it had for me). Then I became aware of others. There were hundreds of thousands of others. I couldn't see anyone's face at first, just their outlines. We were on the edge of a cliff. They were all waiting. I tried to see what they were all looking out at, but just as I was going to ask, a man in a very old uniform turned to face me and in a forceful voice said, 'You're not meant to be here!' The next thing I knew, I could hear my partner's voice.
Date NDE Occurred: 09 June 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes miscarriage 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' . Major blood loss.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I came to the cliff with the others.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning To me it felt like the experience lasted for at least fifteen to twenty minutes but I was later told by my partner it was only a matter of seconds and the I had had a seizure.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I felt cocooned and even when I was starting to return and I heard my partner's voice he sounded a long way away.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Standing on a cliff's edge waiting.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Joy, blessed, intense happiness, love, all the wonderful emotions you can experience all at once.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist god is everywhere
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist the same
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The intense emotions and the fact that I'm okay with death now when they're ready to have me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About a week, and no, everyone just thought I was crazy.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. The emotions stayed with me for weeks after, it was strange I had just had a miscarriage and had to have an operation of which went a bit wrong, so the nurse told me, while I was on the table I had an asthma attack and stopped breathing.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The memories I have of that day are as strong as they were the day after it happened.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Prior to my experience I had a gift sometimes I knew things before they happened, people visiting without them ringing, and dreams of death which was a prediction of birth, but after my experience I suffered major depression and lost my gift. I miss it and wish I had it back.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Prior to your experience did you have any spiritual gifts, dreams, visions?