On a Saturday night, I was suffering from a fever of 106F. I was prodded repeatedly in the lower abdominal area and simultaneously asked what drugs I have taken. An intern took my breath away each time he prodded me. At last, they gave my mom a prescription for some pills and said to have me seen by my physician on Monday. My mom did just that. I was watched over by a friend until Monday came. My mom somehow got me down two flights of stairs and into the car. I was seated on the exam table for a moment, but was hurriedly asked if I had a way to the hospital. My doctor was going to drive me there herself, but my mom took me. As soon as I passed through the doors, I lost consciousness. I was taken directly to the operating room where three doctors did the exploratory surgery and found me to be in a severe condition. They said my female organs were turned around backwards and infected. Ultimately, my condition led to the removal of some intestines, my appendices, a tube and its ovary, and half of my remaining ovary. I must have been upgraded from recovery because my experience happened in my private room where guests were allowed to visit. This is where my life changed. This is where I found it difficult to remark on what happened. I had no reference to compare this to or felt as if I would be taken seriously. I remember thinking what great pain I was in and how I wanted it to stop because I couldn't take it anymore. Then the pain stopped. I felt whole and free of the weight of all my senses. I sat up on the side of the bed and then was on my feet. I walked about three steps toward the wall, turned around, and looked at the bed I left. The bed was not empty. I was in it and as still and white as the sheets that covered me. I then looked behind the bed and saw some monitoring machines. I wasn't scared. I remembered at that time that I was not in pain and was not hungry. I did not need to rely on breathing. I felt light and happy. I looked down and noticed that I was not touching the floor. At that moment, I knew this was my chance to be free of the body that was in pain. I thought of my mom and family, but somehow knew she would be okay. I turned and walked toward the door. I opened it slowly and noticed it was like a dark closet. I seem to relate the darkness was a result of not being religious, but I was not concerned. Then I recalled my boyfriend's father was just trampled by a horse and wasn't expected to recover. I opened the door further and started to walk in, when I heard, in my head, a familiar voice saying to me, 'Stop! Go back you're not ready.' I have heard this voice many times prior to this event, which I won't talk about now. After this moderately deep masculine voice spoke, I said in my head, 'I can't leave Jan now, he couldn't take losing us both.' At that moment, I gasped for air and forced my glassy eyes open. Jan was at the end of the bed. I attempted to speak with him, so I could tell what just happened to me. He said,'s-h-h-h, I know, don't speak right now'.
Date NDE Occurred: July.1975
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Surgery-related. Other: Unwitnessed by hospital personnel
I was suffering from what I know now was sepsis involving my female anatomy.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I was able to converse during this event. I usually just heard his voice in a cautionary fashion.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I suppose when I heard his voice at the door.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No different, was in color as normal.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. More intense than before event.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain The voice spoke to me many times before. He has the same voice of the man that helped me select my parents. The voice that told me to cover up, since I was going to be thrown out of a truck bed along with other children. The same voice took over my car when I hydroplaned off a freeway, and many other events.
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Freedom, healthy, fulfilled, but concerned for another's feelings.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain Yes, if you mean the difference before and after opening the door.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will See Experience
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated My parents didn't involve my siblings and I in any religious activities. My mom would say she was leaving the decisions of beliefs up to each of us. My dad spent his youth wanting to be a minister, but ended up salesman who was an alcoholic, gambler, and woman chaser.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Just very spiritual.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? No comment Spiritual
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I didn't know much about religion because I always thought the bible stories were embellished, so the churches could fill the baskets with money.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I did not see the person, just heard him.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes I seem to be sensitive to thoughts in a crowd.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I learned someone out there knew what I was doing all the time.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I related it to a guide instead of GOD.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain At the time, I felt it was knowledge that I still needed to gain.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes Love
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I know for there is life before and after death.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Much information
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes This is the key to life.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life More spiritual. Although it was not an instant change of compassion, it grew more intensely throughout the years.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I find that I don't want to be around anyone who is the slightest bit negative.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. I remember the event like it happened ten minutes ago unlike where I was living at the time it happened. I have moved all my life.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I seem to be able to know instinctively what people are thinking and if they are good or bad. I also just think to myself of something I need at the time, and behold, it pops right out in front of me.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Just that the voice is always comforting when I hear him.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes In short details, with my mom
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I couldn't have made up such a crazy event if I tried.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Even more so today, since the Internet has been here, it has given me more insight into others' events.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Not now
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Ask more of what type of lifestyle people were living at the time of the event.
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