Experience Description

I was walking on a hazy path, enveloped in foul odors and suffering. The horizon was dark brown and twilight prevailed.

This lasted, and lasted...

Then the pains began to ease, the odors became perfumed, and the colors went progressively from brown to a clear blue and I was very happy to be going where I was going.

Suddenly a shadow started walking on my right side.

That lasted some time, and I was more and more happy, without pain anywhere.

The shadow at my side spoke to me, asking, 'Are you sure you want to go on?'

I went on a few paces, and then I turned around, without replying, and began to go back where I had come from.

My sufferings revived, and the fragrance became disgusting odors and the colors became dark again.

I woke up very angry, furious, furious to have 'returned'.

I still feel the same, to some extent.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 21 janvier 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Eclatement de l'aorte Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Cardiac arrest.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Throughout this 'journey'.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout this 'journey'.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Disgusting odors, dark colors and intense suffering at first. Then, perfumes, light colors and wellbeing.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes A 'shadow' walked beside me and spoke to me. I don't know who it was; I just saw a 'shadow'. 'It' asked me if I really wanted to 'continue'.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The horizon was dark at the beginning, then as I walked on, became light, blue.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Suffering, sadness, then great, immense, colossal joy on 'going where I was going', then rage and sadness at having to 'return where I had come from'.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am much more easy-going with everybody. I never get angry anymore.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain The mixture of anger and rage on awaking after nine days of coma.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The moment of my 'decision' to retrace my steps.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes After three months. And my wife then understood why I was so bad-tempered when I woke up.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I became aware that we will only die IF WE DECIDE TO?

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I 'really' walked this path, and a 'shadow' 'really' asked me if I wanted to continue.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No