I reached the end of myself and was dying because of drug use. As I rose out of my body, the vibrations started to intensify. At first evil was all around. I went to the depths of despair and spiraled down to the pit and was completely broken at the bottom of hell. I then realized why I was there. I was not sent there by God. I had put myself there. I realized at which point in my life my security had given way and it was age five. I had to move to America and leave the security of my uncle who was like a father to me. I lost all security at that point. Later I leaned on God as much as I could and became support to my family and then my wife and kids. I was spiritually leading them. But I didn't love myself so I couldn't lean on anyone because I felt I didn't deserve it. Slowly I started to destroy myself by holding things in then got sick physically. Then I leaned on pain medication to hold me up.
In the pit, I realized that God is one and he stands as one. We are all an extension of God and if we don't stand as one we will fall. That's how the universe is connected. If we hurt those around us, we are hurting ourselves and we will fall. Because who will be our support when we need it? If we love others by first loving ourselves we are close to God and others. But if we hurt, hold bitterness, are unforgiving, hatred or any other thing against ANYONE we are going to destroy ourselves. Because we will keep the bitterness inside and it will make us physically sick and we'll eventually spiral down to the pit. If a person stands on food, drugs, money, sex, adultery or anything other than God or people, we are leaning on paper and will fall and eventually spiral down into the pit.
Then I said to myself by God's spurring, 'He (God) loves me, even me.' When this knowledge came, I knew I didn't have to be there any longer. I put myself there because I didn't believe God loved me so I didn't love myself. Now that I loved myself, I felt worthy of going higher. And God said to me the universe exists in perfect balance. When you are broken, he MUST put you back together again so the universe can make room for the next person who must break and realize they are loved. He showed me that in order to experience the Heights, one must experience the Depths as a balance and that the only safe straight line is the line of death. That's where the balancer or advocate waits to balance out the scales for everyone's life. Some people experience enough hell in life that they don't need to go there when death comes. But even the world has the strongest country and weakest. Cruel nation for kind ones and so is the balance of life as the molecule seeks balance also.
God reached out his hand and brought me up to the heights of heaven and made me realize why my life had been as it had and healed me. I heard angels sing and melodies beyond belief. Eternal melodies that start simple but can have instruments and voices added to them for infinity. I was able to remember three of these melodies and the words to one of the three songs. I know there is also much I forgot. I still know in my depths that God loves me and I love myself and am extremely amazed that I can love everyone around me so much, even strangers. I don't know how, all I know is that it is. My blood sugar also went from 330 to normal without insulin and my blood pressure went to normal and so my cholesterol and triglycerides and I can tell by the little anxiety I sometimes let in that my sugar and blood pressure are a little high and I could tell how high. The doctors monitoring me were all amazed by this. I realize that if a person is at perfect peace inside, he will be well outside. There are exceptions that have to do with destiny. I know sickness is spiritual not physical.
This is just the beginning. I will try to think positive and keep bad feelings out of me and not worry so I stay healthy and strong both emotionally and physically!
Date NDE Occurred: July 4th 2008
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Death from drugs.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The whole experience.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The whole experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No space no time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Different like seeing without eyes as a certain knowing. Sometimes thoughts looked like words as well and were spelled out.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Many voices at once could be processed.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My mother who died and Jesus and God.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Cannot be described. It is life. The original of all life.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Heaven and hell and everything in between.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? All.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control But I only remember the highlights.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist But I believe quite differently
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No More reinforced. I realized that people view the Bible according to where they are at and don't understand what it really is saying. Bible is more a statement of fact as in jump you fall and nature of the universe.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist But I believe quite differently
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No More reinforced. I realized that people view the Bible according to where they are at and don't understand what it really is saying. Bible is more a statement of fact as in jump you fall and nature of the universe.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Explained above.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Can't help to love everyone.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Started writing everything that came to me.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, all.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The same day.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Reading your site and friends who have had them (two).
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Will never forget it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Will never forget it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None.