A friend and I were walking through a field and nearby woods. We were checking a pasture fence-line that fenced in a group of horses that we had. That's what I did û I broke and rode the wildest untamed horses and I LOVED IT! Well, as we ended our five-acre walk, I started feeling a small burning in my chest, right in the middle of my chest cavity. I didn't think much of it. From birth, as far as I knew, I had never been sick or even had a cold, so I just continued on as if the burning were nothing.
My friend Charles and I stood there talking, like, for two more hours to the guy who owned the land (Preacher Charles.) While we were talking, I felt that same burning four more times, so I'm thinking maybe this is what they called gas in your chest.
Charles and I left. So before I headed home, I was going to stop and see my grandmother and step-granddaddy. I saw them and took a shower at my grandfather's house. While showering, that same burning came back. It still was a small burning feeling in the same place in the center of my chest. Well, I got out of the shower, put on a change of clothing, went and told my granddaddy that I had a burning in my chest that keeps popping up. He asked, 'Does it hurt?' 'No,' I said. He asked how long has it been going on, and I said, 'Just today.' I told him if it happened again that I was going to go to the hospital, and just when I said that, it happened again. So, I left to go to the hospital.
It was not even ten minutes away, but before I could get there, my whole body became hot, like real hot, like if you got the heat in your house up high and you're wearing a bunch of clothing, like hot. I only had on a black t-shirt, jeans, and sneakers. So I stopped at the near-by store, went in, got a bottle of water. Then I started feeling dazed. Now, I was not even five minutes from the hospital and I was feeling dazed, blurry-eyed and really hot. I open that bottle of water and poured it over my head, walked to the counter where the store attendant was and said, 'Call an ambulance, I'm dying!'
Now, I don't know how I knew I was dying, but I just knew. I laid down on the floor, and a verse from the Holy Bible came to mind. 'NO WEAPONS FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER.' When I went to recite that passage aloud, instead out comes, 'NO, Jesus, you said I was going to live!' I said it three times.
The paramedic asked me, 'What's wrong?' and I said, 'My chest,' and then I passed out. I woke up in the hospital emergency room. I sat up and grabbed my chest. It was hurting bad this time. The doctor walked in and said, 'He's having another one!' I said, 'Another what?' and he said 'Massive heart attack.' I said, 'What me? I've never been sick in my life' and right then I started throwing up purple fluid from one end of the bed to the other, and some even got on a nurse. I can remember her saying, 'He just threw up on my shoes!' and I passed out again.
This time I opened my eyes, I was not in a hospital, but somewhere else. It's hard to explain, but it felt like a room where there were no colors, no walls, and no darkness. But the room did have a color. It was the color of light. I had no thoughts of my children, my family, and there were no cars, birds, trees, nothing.
I knew something was wrong. I felt that I was dead but it was, like, not even a worry, like I didn't even care. Then I noticed the light was coming only from one direction û the direction I was looking. There was no side view, only straight-ahead tunnel vision. I had to turn my head to see what I wanted to see. Whatever direction I looked in, that's the direction I went in. If I wanted to get from where I was to somewhere else, all I had to do was look, and I was there. I remember after learning that, looking down to see how fast my legs were moving. But there were no legs, no arms, no body, no nothing! I felt as though I was just vision, a set of eyes. But there were no eyes, either. No words were spoken that I heard.
It was as if I was so amazed at moving so fast and turning my head to see, and finding myself floating. Whenever I wasn't moving, I felt as if I was floating. I noticed that the things I was learning about the place I was in just popped into my mind. I don't know where my body was or how I was able to see or feel. I felt as if I could have spoken, but I don't even know how I was able to think. But I WAS thinking things like this, 'I don't know about her [that nurse.] Here's this guy is dying, and you're worried about a little throw-up on you. Get out of here!'
I woke up in another hospital that is 45 minutes away. When I awoke, there was this lady hovering over me. Her face was real close to mine.
Until this day, I don't know if I was still sleeping, or what. She had on a surgical mask and cap, and her hair was, like, golden. Her skin was like white-golden. Her eyes were like diamond-cut ocean-like dark blue, and she said to me, 'YOU'RE BLESSED, YOU'RE BLESSED, you're special, and He has something for you to do.' I never saw the mask move around her mouth where her lips were. She turned and walked away. A minute later, I raised myself up on my elbows, and saw a whole lot of doctors and nurses in my room. They were all in one corner. I have no idea what they was doing. One nurse came over to me and said, 'You're blessed! God has something for you to do!' I asked her. 'Am I dead?' and she said. 'Not anymore!' I asked, 'Am I going to die?' and she said, 'Not on my watch.' It felt like I was in that peaceful place for like ten to fifteen minutes, but I was really there for almost an hour.
Date NDE Occurred: 07/12/2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
A massive heart attack
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I noticed everything around me and that everything was one unit, working in different ways, but yet one.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? This question I can't answer because knowing I was dying was a high point.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No There was no time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision controlled my actions
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was all connected to my vision.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was like I was somewhere but nowhere, and I wasn't tired or sleepy.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Amazed, excited!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I understood what cherub spirits are, and I understood that what the world needs is to wake up and see worldly things for what they truly are, and that we need to truly study our God's word. We all, and I mean everyone that breathes, need to learn how to love all over again, and share love with everyone we meet. If not, no peace will fall upon them, nothing but destruction, false love, and the darker death.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I understand that this world has other people in it as well as me, and we are all a little different. If I love them or care for them, in order for me to try and be a help to them, I need to understand in what ways I could be the most help to them. I mean that I can't fix a car if I have no skills or wisdom to fix cars.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience it makes since now as I was writing this -- It wasn't Jesus out that window he was watching over me He love us he couldn't rise up against us , he loves us to much it was God the father who carried out Sentencing on Satan and his followers
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes To love, to truly love
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes yes I felt like I was in Jesus that in him I had no cares no concern no urge of sin no sinful thoughts just a feeling of ease and comfortable like I felt as Jesus whispering tome everything is ok
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain I had a feeling that Gods words are being for filled against Satan and his angels and their earthly followers That Jesus didn't look at what was going on either , that this was the God him self moving on the otherside os that window
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Uncertain uncertain all I know it felt like there was a long rectangular window of light and I felt like there was something going on on out there I felt it was war or something I had no urge to see I went to the window but I never looked out I felt more amaz
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes yes I never really felt love here but during that time I felt like a baby being held by a loving parent just just love and peace
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I apply love from the start, full-pledge love
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I know there's a place in the Bible that says, 'My children, sleep till the day,' and it's talking about peace.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I know it feels like now I can feel the good in people and the bad, but maybe that's just my imagination.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The vision.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it as soon as I remembered, after all those drugs they had me on wore off.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definately not real I thought I had been dreaming.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No