This happened to me at the time of my accident, and the experience consisted of three different parts.
First, I floated above myself on the operating table and I could see the doctors and nurses working on me. It was a short-lived experience but very vivid.
Secondly, I found myself floating in a dark room, with bright white clouds all in the background, with light coming from behind the white clouds. My family members were. There was also a team of doctors standing in a perfect circle around me. I believe it was here where I decided, or was told, to come back - it was not my time.
Thirdly, in this one I have proof I was out of my body. I was in a coma for ten days, and my sister was in the room holding my hand. I was across the room by the door, looking at her. I would see the back of her head, and then she would turn towards the door and begin to cry. I could see her perfectly.
When I came out of my coma, one of the first things I asked her, was 'Why were you crying?' and she stated she wasn't. Then I told her that I had seen her from across the room. When I told her that, the hair stood up on the back of her neck, she told me later. Then she admitted that she had wanted to be strong for me, so she would turn away from me in the bed in order to try to keep me from seeing her weakness. I explained that I had been over by the doorway, out of my body, and that when she had turned to cry, she was actually facing right toward me.
This last one is proof, in my opinion. How else would I have seen her crying?
Since then, I have read a book about OBEs and I practice inducing them. I have been able to get out of my body on my own.
Date NDE Occurred: 04/03/1988
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'I was shot three times, once in my abdomen, once in right leg with hit my Femoral artery and the other grazed my left leg. It was about 2:00am, Easter Sunday/Monday Morning.' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Major blood loss, and I died in the hospital on the operating table.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Not sure what you mean, I was aware the whole time, each time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
When I was in the dark room with white clouds, it was somewhere else, not of this time or space. It is hard to explain
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It is hard to think of how my vision was affected. But in the experience with my family and the doctors standing around me, it seemed more like I was in a field of light and darkness. The light was very bright, but did not bother my eyes, like it would in waking life. I did not have to squint to look directly into, I mean.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Not so much during the experiences I had in the hospital, but more in the ones that I have induced myself. I always hear a sound like the buzzing a bumblebee makes. It gets louder and louder right before I am able to separate.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Most seemed to be family members from this life - they were the ones I was familiar with; and the others looked like doctors and nurses, all dressed in white.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes But not just a light, it was mixed with darkness and white clouds. The light was behind the clouds and I was surrounded by all the light and clouds.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Since my experience, I have been much more in tune with my instincts and I have had dreams of premonitions. I have written my premonitions in my dream journal and some of them have happened.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was raised Catholic, but I have come to realize that God is in all of us, and all we need to do is look within and we shall see. But I do not discount any church, as churches are where others need to be for their own paths.
What is your religion now? Moderate 'I am a true believer but not sure about organized religion, do not think you have to attend church to have a close relationship with God.'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was raised Catholic, but I have come to realize that God is in all of us, and all we need to do is look within and we shall see. But I do not discount any church, as churches are where others need to be for their own paths.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew that we are all connected, from one source, tied together with and from the light - all separate in ourselves, but all one at the same time.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Some. Some of the friends I used to have, I no longer have; and having these experiences has brought others into my life.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am very much more psychic than I was before. Sometimes I try not to be because it gets scary sometimes, to be honest.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? All of it was meaningful to me. But the one with me floating, deciding whether or not I should stay there or come back, that was pretty profound. Sometimes, I miss that pure love feeling and wonder why I was sent back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have shared some with family and a few friends. Some have been accepting and others have just brushed it off. It is hard for them to see and understand what I know to be true, since they have not walked in my shoes.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real My sister validated it for me. She confirmed that she had done exactly what I had seen from across the room, so if that was true, then the other things must be, too.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It is just something you do not forget, or dismiss. I have been working on ways to perfect my gift, but time and money get in the way. I guess life gets in the way.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I have tried different types of medicinal substances like mushrooms and such, trying to cross over to other realms, but nothing is like the real thing.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? This was a life-changing event, (for better or worse - who's to say!). All I know is that it was what I was supposed to go through and experience. I do not fear death and only want to live life to the fullest.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Not really - pretty good survey.