December 1, 2009, 19:00, It is night time. I am driving alone, the road is straight, and I am not driving very fast.
An object falls from the passenger seat, I unfasten my seat belt and I bend to retrieve it. I lose control of the car. I have no memory from the moment when I bent to retrieve that object until the morning after - and even so, painkillers have erased my memory a lot.
I was ejected five meters away from the car. I had a broken pelvis (three times), broken neck vertebra (C1), broken ribs, spleen outpouring, various pelvic bruises and brain trauma. I was in critical condition from midnight to 6:00 am.
(I can't be sure about when I had the experience. However, I believe it occurred when I had the accident.)
All is cold and black. Without exaggeration, the atmosphere seemed as if there was nothing on earth anymore. No ground, no sky, no skyline, just black.
I feel I am lying on some surface, though. I see a white light in the distance, like a lobby entrance or an opened door. The light is coming closer, or, rather, I feel I am going toward the light - as if I were walking but without walking, I feel my body does not move. It is very hard to describe. Once I arrive close to the light, a being on my right stops me. Without recognizing him by his appearance, I know who he is - he is my Grandfather. He tells me something like, 'No, not now, go back.'
(I know these are short sentences. I think he said more, but I am unable to recall the exact words.) I can also tell that he is calm and kind, but, at the same time, I feel he is deeply angry with me. Then I see the light going away.
That's it. It's not much, but the more I think about it, the odder I feel. I did not share it with anybody because I felt it was just for me; and, besides, I thought nobody would really believe me anyway.
Today I'm convinced that my grandfather (and it absolutely was my grandfather) knew that I mustn't go into the light. I even believe I remember he told me something like I wasn't finished with something???
I believe I am here today (maybe) to do something, but I don't know what it is. I only know it's important.
I am much more sensitive, emotional today than I was prior to the experience.
Thank you for reading.
Date NDE Occurred: 01/12/2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
The accident itself.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal None.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? None.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I do not recall hearing any sounds.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I feel with deep certainty that I met with my mother's father.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A white light, like a corridor entrance. Everything around was dark, black.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes But I don't know whether that is because of the experience or because of the accident.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes But I don't know whether that is because of the experience or because of the accident.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The memory is fragmented. It seems to be between a dream and reality.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I had heard about near death experiences before, but I hadn't paid much attention.
This happened a few weeks ago, and since then more and more about what happened has been coming back to me. Also, since it happened, I have been doing some research on the Internet about near death experiences.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real At first I thought that the experience was probably not real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Now I think that the experience was probably real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No