I was very sick. I had a kidney infection that had gotten so bad that all I could do was lie in bed, under 10 blankets, shaking badly. My husband was at work, not far away, and my daughter (age 13) was home.
My daughter was in my room for some reason. I saw her, closed my eyes and then drifted out of consciousness. Everything was gray; foggy but it wasn't really 'fog.' Then, I found myself standing in a vertical tunnel. I say 'tunnel' for lack of a better word. It seemed more like a well and I was standing at the bottom of it. The top was about three feet above my head. It was dark in the 'well,' but there was a light (this sounds so lame!) at the top of it. As the light grew brighter, I could make out some people, sort of leaning over, peering in. I saw three of my grandparents. There were two other people who don't seem familiar to me now, but I remember knowing who they were at the time. I felt happy and very glad to see them. They spoke to me, but not with their mouths. I can't remember what they said. I reached my hand up as if to let them pull me out, but my grandmother scolded me, 'Not yet!' she said. I then started hearing a lot of voices, their voices and other voices. I remember gasping for air, and as I did, it sucked me back into the bed. I opened my eyes to my husband shaking me and my daughter sobbing, 'you weren't breathing!' She had freaked out and called my husband and he had rushed home. Then, they took me to the doctor.
I didn't tell them what had happened, but I told my mom later and she was glad to hear about her parents. Ever since this happened, I feel a sort of sadness, and I really want to go back there. I know I will, someday, and it gives me great peace to know (because now I really do know) that I will see my loved ones again, and that there is life after death.
Date NDE Occurred: 2010
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' I had a horrible kidney infection that went untreated to the point I was spiking a super high fever and stopped breathing.
I was very sick and had stopped breathing
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I was at my highest level of alertness, once the light came into focus and I could see the people.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was at my highest level of alertness, once the light came into focus and I could see the people.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The light was bright (but it didn't bother me to look at it) and once I could make out the faces, they were very clear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I felt as if it were dark, and as the darkness faded, I felt as if I were in a well or something like a well.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My three grandparents and some other people I can't remember.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm It was beautiful where they were. Not so much, in the "well"
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? First, I felt confusion and then an incredible feeling of joy.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I for sure believe in the afterlife.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I for sure believe in the afterlife.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know there is an afterlife. And it's going to be great.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? My grandmother saying, 'not yet' and getting the feeling I have more work to do on this earth.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My mom, about a year later. We were on the subject.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Of course. I had experienced something else, completely different, though.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I think it was real. It could have been some freaky dream but I don't think it was.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real It's still pretty vivid.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nothing. It's great.