Experience Description

I was taken to hospital due to complications with my pregnancy. I was in labor, but three months early. They decided to perform a c'sarean, this is where they discovered 'placenta previa' and then preformed a hysterectomy. My body was not responding to stemming the blood flow and further complications occurred. My family was thousands of miles away and were warned I would not make it through the night. Sixty-five pints of blood were transfused but still I would not stop bleeding. I was in the intensive care unit on a life support system with staff manually pumping the blood into me, as the machines at the time were not keeping pace with the loss of blood; five operations were performed over the time. This occurred over five days from Monday 3rd June to Friday 7th June, 1991.

What I distinctly remember to this very day, is firstly a flashing of beautiful scenes, fields, oceans, dolphins, horses, and everything racing. Then suddenly I left the earth as such entering into a tunnel spiraling upward (not vertically upward) at a lean of thirty degrees say, there was this intense light at the end and then when I exited into the light there was this enormous overwhelming sense of peace love warmth security. I was at 'home' at last!

The light was intensely white, but it was not harming my vision, but there again there was not really anything to 'see' so to speak, but rather more a sense of 'feeling'. I could 'sense' the 'entities', their welcoming, the pleasure the peace the happiness and utmost relief to be 'back'. But then there was this voice, clear, kind, deliberate, never to be questioned, omnipotent. It simply said these very words, 'You must go back, you have more lessons to teach.' I remember what seemed a nanosecond of disappointment but more so acknowledgement of my duty to fulfill part of the plan. It certainly was not a reward. Then I awoke! I was confused, I was complacent and tried to tell one and all what had happened. I thought it was strange that I was sent back, not for the sake of family etc., it was a definite 'purpose' and I knew the 'teaching' was not grade school but 'something different' and that is how my life has been since 'something different'.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: between June 3rd - June 7th 1991

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-relatedChildbirth Clinical death Apparently clinically dead, had received sixty-five units of blood but still bleeding and all organs were shutting down.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I felt as if I was an entity not in body form. The body is of no real use, it was of no importance to me. I was not conscious of it being there or not being there. I was just a spirit, the only important part of existence.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I felt and know it really happened, I was alert.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It was more a sense of no time, and definitely a different level of space, The 'higher planes' I now call them.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Just a voice at the end telling to return.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I described above.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I described all this before.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Described above, indescribable brightness but you can still see, i.e. you don't have to shield your eyes.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm This level / dimension at the end of the tunnel that was 'home' it was very peaceful and 'beautiful'.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe We all have purposes to fulfill and we obey that order, if we try to intervene we will only have to start all over again and it could be a more difficult 'journey' next time.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control There were lots of visions of life on earth in general and lots of events and people I knew but didn't seem to be much of any order. I learned a lot, but I don't relate this to a review of life past events. It had more to do with the peacefulness at the end, the finding a purpose/duty of life, not fearing death etc.

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Described above.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Yes, yes, yes. *no longer fearful of death. *no longer contemplate suicidal thoughts (knowing this interferes with the 'plan'). *not as materialistic, gave away many, many superfluous household items. *became minimalistic. *more interest in karma and Buddhism.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Describing the brightness of the light yet still able to see, the entities, the clear message of the voice but that it was not from a 'person' as we people on earth imagine a being.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I had always been able to 'sense' things and find lost things, which I thought was eerie, but now I take it for granted, e.g. we all probably have this ability but just don't bother to fine tune it.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best bit was the peace and happiness of being 'there'. Worst bit was having to return.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Plenty of times. People have showed interest, but at times are skeptical and questioning but I feel it is only something really believable if you experience this. Perhaps I need to remind one and all of the saying: 'For those who believe no proof is necessary, for those who don't know proof is possible!' Oh, and I did remind my dad as he was dying in 2001, not to be afraid etc., etc. I hope that this relieved him a bit. I didn't feel so devastated when my father died, (just miss his company) as I knew he would be peaceful at last.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Glad at last to put it down in writing.