I talk a lot and this one's a doozy. Luckily, my memory of 'my potential death' is not too long or detailed. I was driving on an icy winter road. The truck left the road and hit a road signpost. My memory picks up in hospital during the earlier stages of recovery when I was able to keep some short-term memories. I had to be told quite often, 'Chris you were in an accident.' The following summer, I was released from hospital. I was told that I would never walk, talk, or function properly. I surprised everyone. As soon as I was able, my wife and I took a trip to my home province in Newfoundland. That June, I had seen my family members who couldn't make it to Calgary. It was on this trip while lying in bed that I had the first 'flash' of my after death experience.
I remembered my '15 white seconds'. Everything went completely white. It was not a flashlight, tunnel, or glowing light. It was more like a white snowstorm, I guess, but with that particular white. I knew I was at a table area talking to someone, I don't know who it was.
I remember being told, 'Chris, it's time to head back.' It really seems it was at the tail end of a longer talk. I am not able to recall the first part. I keep Trying all time. Before it ended, to my left were my grandparents from mom's side. Sitting on a bench, Nan was closer to my view, Pop, to the left of her, sort of behind her. Nan looked at me: nodded her head, as if an approval. No words from her. She was across from me: 'Chris, time to head back'. That's it. I cannot get more than that.
I just feel I know things now. It's weird what I saw, what I know. More like a feeling, I guess. I could never get technical. 'The world is in trouble' or 'Jesus was there' or 'this is what we must do now': nothing absolute like those kinds of things. I do feel awesome now in regards to: 'the God - No God' thing. I moved on to more: enjoy the ride while you are here type of thing. More will come later (my part in it).
Date NDE Occurred: January 19 2011
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury. Other: 'wanted to check both of first choices because honestly, to be completely accurate. Im not sure. I have ambulance reports and insurance reports stating 'Patient Deceased' but not sure if hospital really went over that with me or family?'
I had a truck accident and suffered a brain injury.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal No memory of it until weeks afterwards. I was in a coma.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Sorry again, I had an almost complete memory block for about 6-8 weeks afterwards. I can't remember the accident, either. Just 5 minutes before, I grabbed a tea, and got back on the highway. Then, hospital recovery time: about 6-8 weeks after the accident that I started to remember.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Uncertain. See above explanation
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place
What emotions did you feel during the experience? If I had to say: tons of curiosity, more questions yet, but confident.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Not everything maybe, just enough to feel more comfortable with everything.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated I was looking for the 'right' answer. God - No god? Matter - no Matter?
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I stopped looking for the right religion, and maybe the right answers. I don't worry about the details, as such, so I don't need a 'one' religion to help in that way.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths Not sure if any of those apply? Now how do I short version?
I believe or KNOW there is more. what in pertacular that is I'm still not sure, but best of all. I really think, it does not matter really. Probably because maybe now I'm 'in the know'
maybe just knowing there is more and its not 'rule based' i'm able to enjoy till the heart stops full time.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Pretty vague, but maybe changes in my beliefs. They're probably stronger, with more knowing as opposed to wondering.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists┬
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Uncertain
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Uncertain
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events at time yep, again tough one. I have TBI now. tough to remember where my keys are now. lol. actually the further back memories are easier. so who knows. maybe i'll have to get BACK TO you. :)
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Still can't seem to make the Toronto Maple Leafs lose more!
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared with many. They all seem to be very interested. It could be the fact I survived, too, I guess.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes It was always a curiosity. Funny, I found out that, a month or so before my accident, I was You Tubing people's NDEs. I was trying to find one common theme: not a Hollywood theme or a religious inspired theme.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I was in recovery at the time.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I can't remember it that way.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I truly feel there are more memories up there in this broken brain of mine. Now it's how to retrieve or do I need to?