I was moved from the intensive care unit to Progressive Care Unit to get ready for discharge planning and to come home. My intensive care unit nurse decided I needed IV access and I am a very hard stick. After many attempts in the intensive care unit to get access to my veins, they went ahead and moved me to Progressive Care Unit. They asked the surgeon on call that day to put in a central line. I knew the doctor. While she was attempting to put in the central IV line in, I told her to put me in an emergency room because I was going to pass out.
I then felt the most peace I have ever felt in my life. My mother was there to meet me and told me I had to come back that I was not through.
Date NDE Occurred: December 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes I had been in a car accident was moved from ICU to PCU and was unable to keep my oxygen up the nurse hooked me up to compressed air instead of oxygen and I went into pulseless v fib Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I had been a bad car wreck three to four days prior I was in the hospital I am employed at in the intensive care unit and it was not a good experience.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I remember everything from the time I went to when I came back and the doctor and nurses were coding me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My mother.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes My mother.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Angry that I was brought back in live in all this pain, depressed.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate I was raised Baptist have always had a problem with organized religion I belong to a we step fellowship
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes No one understands the depression.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes How I felt about being brought back and expressing the peaceful feeling and how strong it was.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Did not and do not understand why I had to come back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know where my mom is and want to be with her.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still want to be with my mom, I am very depressed I want to die every day just to feel peace.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I need help with the depression, is this normal have other people felt this way after.