Everything seemed to get real quiet and slow, kind of slow motion, almost like I had time to experience all of the feelings sounds and surroundings in less than real time. And it was almost like time was not there. Hard to explain, like one minute of time took one or two hours to take place. After the quiet, almost too quiet, so without sound like a still night - only quieter. I saw the truck in slow motion. The GMC emblem, the busted plastic grill, the chrome but rusted bumper. The windshield of the truck was flat, not like newer rounded windshields, the wipers were mounted from the top not the bottom. Details like that are endless, even now eleven years later. Next, the sound of skidding tires, breaking glass, and the loudest bang or explosion I have ever heard.
I remember calling out the side of the mangled car for help. No one came for what felt like forever. Then in the blink of an eye, the medics were there and my brother was by my side telling me that everything was going to be ok. He even was yelled at because I asked for a cigarette. He lit one and gave it to me, but I had the oxygen mask on. They didn't like that too much.
This is when things get a little weird because that really didn't happen, but I remember it happening like it was real. I blacked out. I don't remember being loaded into the ambulance. I have to go by my brother's account of what happened and when the fire department cut the car apart to get me out. The medic cut the seat belt, which I later found out was acting like a tourniquet. I started to bleed out. I had a right femur fracture; my pelvis was broken in five places. I went into shock and coded twice on the road next to the car.
The next thing I remember, I was in the ambulance. Everything was dark but I could still hear everything. Some things were distant, like the siren. Other things were very clear. Then I could see the inside of the ambulance. In like a three dimensional circle, I saw a person on the cot. I did not realize it was me at that time. I had an automatic blood pressure cuff on my right arm. It kept checking blood pressure. The man yelled, 'He's going down!' I watched the monitor read 67/35 then 54/? And the spo2 read 23%.
Then it got all warm and I realized I was dying. It was me there. All of the horrific pain was gone. I felt better than I had ever felt before like a peaceful deep sleep feels. Disconnected. I felt happy. All of the sound started to get further and further away. The next series of events happened in what felt like about two or three months, but was actually about fifteen minutes. No one came to me, or anything like that, but more like a movie of what I wanted in life. The girl I liked at the time was my wife, which came true two years later. Kind of like if I had complete control of the future, I got to build the perfect life. Then what felt like a ton of bricks fell from the highest building onto my chest like three times in a row about ten seconds apart.
Everyone tells me that I was in an eight day coma but I remember waking up and sitting up in the surgery room where they were stitching me up. I said something I don't remember what that something was, but the doctor didn't say anything. I heard a voice telling me to lie down and relax but there was no one there when I woke up eight days later. All of the warm glow feeling and painless state was gone. I felt the worst I had ever felt ever and at that time mad that I was not in that place anymore. The recovery took almost a year. I still suffer from pain. I feel like I was kept here for the reason of raising my two daughters and helping people through the fire department. This happened like eleven years ago and I can still remember every detail. You are the first person I have told this story to I hope it doesn't sound to over the top, thanks for listening.
Date NDE Occurred: 9/3/1997
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury 'mva hit in driver's door of a 1993 grand marque by a semi
at aprox 55 mph car rolled 3 times into a ditch' Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal In the ambulance watching the monitor.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the ambulance watching the monitor.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
As explained in above story.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. As described in the story above.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Far of dying, then warmth and welcoming.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I saw my future or what I hoped it would be.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist no real religious back ground
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist no real religious back ground
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I have not talked to any one about this in eleven years, not even my wife. The fear of people thinking I'm crazy makes it hard to talk about it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Some strange feelings of intuition about things.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? As explained in above story.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real As explained in above story.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real Not sure.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.