I'm not totally sure about this. After the surgery, I was very ill. I was very out of it for a week. I had the feeling that I had died. I had this vivid recollection more like an experience. The doctor never said anything to me about losing me at the time. Two years later a nurse that was in surgery with me told my mother that they had lost me for a couple of minutes and that she was very lucky to still have me.
Date NDE Occurred: April 25 1988
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death I'm not totally sure about this. After the surgery, I was very ill. I was very out of it for a week. I had the feeling that I had died. I had this vivid recollection more like an experience. The doctor never said anything to me about losing me at the time
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very alert and excited and happy.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I remember coming out of darkness into the light.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw Jesus holding my five year old son who had died two years earlier in an accident. They were both dressed in white. They were standing or floating in this bright light. I couldn't see much of anything else I was to focused on seeing my son. Jesus was holding him. Jesus put him down and he came to me. I was so happy to see him. We embraced and I told him that I could see that he was in good hands and that he was very happy and full of love and peace, but I had to go back to earth and help his sister, who was nine, to get through the trial of this life. I told him I loved him. He understood what I was saying and then I went back. I remember wanting so desperately to stay there with him, but I just couldn't. I felt very torn and sad to leave at that moment. I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. I'd go back there in a minute if I could. It was such a wonderful experience. It's been such a blessing in my life.
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was bright and full of peace and love.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace and happiness and a sadness to leave and come back to earth.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I have a knowledge that Jesus is real and heaven is a real place. I know that the most important things in life are family and spending time with them, and that we can trust in the Lord. We need to help other people when we can. The most important thing is to do the best job you can in everything and to love everyone and everything in this world no matter how bad your situation is in life. When you keep your focus on getting to heaven to be with the Lord, it becomes much more easy to do the right things. It suddenly doesn't matter what or how other people or life has treated you. It becomes very easy to forgive and turn the other cheek. It becomes very easy to except adversity. I know that everything that happens is for the good even if it doesn't seem like it at the time. Life is a learning experience. At times, we're the student. At times, we're the teacher. When we've learned what we need or have served our purpose in this life we go back to God.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I had to decide to go back to my body.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate I attended the united church of Christ. I had a strong belief in God. I
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist I belong to the Mormon Church. Now I don't just believe in God and Jesus Christ and heaven, I know it's there! There's a big difference. I don't fear death and have much more faith in the Lord to work in my life.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I just want to be the best person I can be, so that I can get back to heaven.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The fact that it was a real experience and not at all like a dream.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No I do feel like my son communicates with me on occasion.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain