In 1990, I was found in a coma and I died for a bit. During this time, I saw a black hole with a circle of light that I was traveling through. A sense of peacefulness, which is indescribable, came over me. I continued to go through the tunnel/circle of light. I wanted to stay because the feeling, the peacefulness, was so complete. Somehow, I knew it was heaven; I looked to see if my grandmother and my daughter Becky was there. They were - and again I felt a peace knowing that they were all right. I also saw another friend, who supposedly committed suicide. I could hear my family and my other daughters talking to me. I needed to come back and help them. I wanted to hold on to that peace that I felt; however, my family needed me. I soon came out of the coma.
Later I found out, the doctors tried everything but it wasn't till my daughters were allowed in my room that I came out of the coma.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/3/90
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness mosquito...encephalitis of the brain Clinical death I don't think I was declared dead, they worked to get my system stabilized. However, there is a short time they thought they lost me.Encephalitis, did die for a while.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Pretty high. Time was different, it seemed like a long time but it wasn't.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time seemed to go slower than normal.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Not that I can recall - but I saw my parents, children crying, and around me.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Tunnel of light with some darkness in the middle.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes An angel I think. Asked about my daughter, grandmother and saw them. Then I saw a friend. They were okay, didn't have to worry about them.
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright, golden light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Indescribable.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I am not afraid of dying; I know my loved ones are okay.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Some things, I never take my daughters that I have for granted. Quit mourning my oldest daughter, and do my best for my daughters, that survived.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Peaceful, but confused - wanted to stay and experience the peacefulness yet I wanted to be with my boyfriend and family. They needed me to stay, how could I ask my mother to go through that pain of loss; I am the only daughter. I also remembered how I felt when I had to bury my daughter, there is no loss like that and it is hard to bounce back from.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I did believe in God, but now I know there is a heaven. When someone dies, I know they can see me and be with me for they are only in a different dimension.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best is that I no longer mourned for my daughter, I knew she was in heaven with my grandmother. I wanted to live and to do that I had to give up that sense of peace.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some people close to me. I hope I influenced them
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Wish I could get hypnotized to bring back more of what I felt when this happened.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? This is a rather thorough questionnaire - impressed.