At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Afterwards I learned that it took some doing to bring me back to life. They performed heart massage, etc. and I learned I was 'lost' to death again at various times. :)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was a feeling of 'timelessness', there was no time, but there was movement from me towards that LIGHT. And on the way over there, there was movement and motion.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Black and bright light are the only 'colors' I can remember.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was silence but also a humming sound, indefinable, which suggested movement, a congestion.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes When I popped back I felt I went through a tunnel in order to take possession of my body again, an experience which still impresses me. I opened my eyes almost immediately and I came to life with a smile on my face (so a nurse told me). I also immediately received a shock: they asked me who I was, my date of birth, etc.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I encountered others, 'people' I had known and forgotten constellations of indefinable contents.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I flashed towards a very bright light in the distance and on the way over there I encountered and experienced all sorts of things.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? WONDERFUL and free of pain and relieved.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control In a flash your life is being 'shown' and 'relived' from an unexpected angle. Things that were unimportant here are very important there.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Quaker
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal Quaker
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes The purpose was to buzz to that light.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes My partner called me angry and unmanageable, truly a changed behavior indeed. And I was very very angry to be back!!! Now I have to go through it all over again I thought, and still think.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Words are very inadequate to describe this experience, but I'll do my best.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I can see where people come from and sometimes their direct future. I also feel intuitively more and better (or maybe now I allow myself to?) and I know the outcome. Sometimes I think I should get more into it but I don't know how yet. And there is always the doubt: 'must I'? - all that knowledge.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? To be one with everything the experience offered and the absence of good and evil.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Like I said at the start of this questionnaire, four years after my experience I allowed people to interview me, that was in 2001. My experience has been in writing for a while now! Without reactions though. I was very reluctant to share my experience, only my partner and friends knew about it. And they shared my astonishment and admiration for this experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I stick to what I have said that I experienced a dream in a dream. As real as a dream can be but everything that happened can also be called a dream (real as well); I saw myself, I experienced myself in that dream, a wonderful journey in bliss and swathed in love searching for me. My true home, a part of myself that was left behind. I now also know that it is a very special dream which never leaves you and sparkles on and on - and it is not a nightmare. :)
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I have learned in the meantime that more people have had a similar experience. And the experience in itself is and was real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It's a very special event for everyone experiencing it. An experience of love that cannot be described in words.