Experience Description

I had a hysterectomy. I was out of recovery and in my room when I was allowed to walk to the restroom. I fainted in the restroom. I remember nurses snapping ammonia capsules under my nose but I couldn't stay conscious long enough to walk back to the bed. My toes dragged on the floor as they half-carried me to bed.

I was in bed when the doctor arrived. He began to push and feel around my stomach when someone screamed. At that time, I realized it was I who had screamed, but I wasn't 'there'. I was high up in a corner of the room watching them working on me. I 'saw' me scream rather than 'heard' it. The doctor was taking my blood pressure and said something about it being 35/0. He called for units of blood and was angry because they weren't thawed out. He gave me two units of a clear fluid, while the blood was being prepared. I continued to watch all the activity floating in a bright white light. It was peaceful and I didn't want to leave it but a thought of my three year old daughter made everything disappear and when I woke up I think it was three days later.

I woke up very angry and began to yell at my husband who had walked into my empty room because the hospital staff had removed me for a brief exam without informing him. In short, my family assumed I had died and had started making the 'calls' to other family members. I was angry at having to return.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1996

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death Surgical procedure that left a blood clot grapefruit size in abdomen. Post-operative complications.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I didn't 'see' my body as I floated; it was more of my mind and soul with no substance or body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Unconscious.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I don't know how long this all took or when I woke up.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I didn't pass through but it seemed to be waiting just behind me.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright white light, warm feeling on my face.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, tranquility, serenity, warmth.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I have a sort of psychic thing going with my sister.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I wanted to stay and be with my daughter, but I was so angry when I woke up.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm kinder, much more empathetic to the plight of others.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I could hear clearly what was being said and I could watch everything that was being done to me, I just can't express what I felt.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have a sort of psychic thing going with my sister.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Peace was the best. The worst was not being able to talk about the experience until many years later. There was not much information on the subject so it was somewhat scary. Everyone thought you were crazy when you said anything.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Most thought I was nuts. Others were envious.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Each time I have surgery, I have something go wrong, and end up scaring everyone for a minute or two.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain