I was coming out of the anesthesia, in a lot of pain and having difficulty breathing, I could hear the monitor beeping and see the clock and bulletin board on the wall, and then the monitor slowed and stopped beeping. A nurse was saying, 'Stay with us', and I remember thinking, 'There sure are a lot of tubes in my head. Wait, that's the top of my head' and I was looking down as if my head were in my lap and a nurse with long brunette hair was rubbing my right arm, then someone called for an 'epi drip.' I looked to see the time, and the clock and bulletin board were nothing but bright light. I thought, 'If that's me down there, then where am I and why am I no longer having trouble breathing? Well, at least I am thinking and that light is very pretty. If this is it, and I am dying, where are you Daddy because I am not facing this alone. Better yet, I am not going to die, just because I am having wisdom teeth pulled.'
Then I felt a strong jolt and I felt a lot of pain and was having a hard time breathing again, and I remember thinking, 'Thanks God, but it was awfully peaceful, and I sure do hurt right now, but it's good to be back.'
Date NDE Occurred: 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death . The attending doctor was trying to revive me.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My vision was working, I was aware I wasn't breathing and obviously no tactile sensations as I felt no pain.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was very conscious and alert mentally although my body was 'unconscious' I was told later that I should not have been able to hear 'epi drip' and that, yes, I was clinically dead.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I was very aware that I was in altered space. I knew I was no longer in the recovery room and must have been in some dimension between living and dying.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes White light, all around
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I could hear at first sounds 'below' me but they disappeared as I pulled away.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was amazed that I had my same personality.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No I have always had some knowledge of future events on a familial basis.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I asked to come back, although I am usually one to pray and was surprised that I was so flippant in my manner about it
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Most people talk about how profoundly these experiences change their lives. I am still afraid of dying. I still believe in God. My intellect can still argue that this was all just a hallucination but the faith side says I wasn't expecting anything to happen. How did I come up with a white light wall?
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No If anything, mine have decreased.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was the feeling when looking at the light. The worst was the realization that I was not breathing.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Mixed
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? If it happens again, I still will ask to come back.