I fell to the floor in our bottom stairs bathroom. I remember being in a very dark place, pitch black. I was not afraid. I was just amazed by how dark this place was. I then felt the presence of other beings. I never saw their faces, however. I somehow knew that my grandmother and aunt where there, plus others I had no feeling about. They were behind me and kept telling me to go with them. I even felt them touching my shoulder from behind trying to get me to go with them. They insisted that I go with them. I became angry and told them I wasn't ready. I even yelled at them to let me go. I felt bad, ashamed, because I thought I had hurt their feelings. They seemed very sad.
The next thing I knew was my wife was near me. She was crying. I remember telling her that I needed her to touch my face with her skin. I told her that if she didn't do that, I was probably going to die. I knew this with every fiber of my being.
Date NDE Occurred: February 5, 2001
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Stroke StrokeI suffered an Ischemic stroke. I lost half my cerebellum.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very alert.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I was in a very dark place, as I think back now, it seemed at the time to be a very large place, just totally dark. I was being asked to go in a certain direction, but I refused.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I felt the presence of other beings. I never really saw them, I felt them. [For further info, see narrative].
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See narrative.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? See narrative.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal none
What is your religion now? Liberal none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I no longer think long-term.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Everything was dark, but not threatening. I felt presence of other entities.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best: I am not afraid of death, maybe I never was. The worst was the anger I felt about not going with those beings.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Not sure.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No