Experience Description

I was riding my Harley motorcycle home from work about 9:00 pm. The drive belt broke, so I had to stop. I was very angry and was going to call my girlfriend to bring me a new belt and some tools so I could fix it. I never got to make the call.

I was immediately confronted by 6 Hispanic males who watched my Harley coast to a stop. They came out to the street aggressively as they approached me. One male had a baseball bat. I was in the wrong place and was about to fight for my life. They shouted at me, 'You are gonna die gringo' and I had to fight. I had no weapons except my fists. They encircled me in the street and started punching me and hitting me with the baseball bat. I was trying to pay the most attention to the guy with the baseball bat. All of a sudden, I felt a stabbing pain in my abdomen. One of the attackers had a knife. When I was stabbed, I also was hit in the head with the baseball bat and was out like a light.

The next thing I knew, I was standing on a beach in the republic of Panama. I used to go snorkeling there when I was in the Army. It looked very different but I knew where I was. It was very strange and VERY real. I didn't understand why I was there and knew I was getting the sh#@ kicked out of me whereever my body was back in Arizona.

The trees in the background looked VERY old, like the old trees that are over 1000 years old. There was a little girl standing in front of me with a grin on her face as she was looking at me. She had on blue clam-digger shorts and a white sleeveless, v-cut T-shirt. She was barefoot. As she stood smiling at me, I noticed that she had the greenest eyes I have ever seen, like fire-green. It was mid-day. The ocean, sun, birds, and the wind were so totally real that it was very confusing. Why was I there?

I finally said to the little 12 or 13 year-old girl, 'HEY, I'm getting the sh#@ kicked out of me. I got to go!' and I started to walk away. Where I was going to go, I had no idea. But I had to go some place where I was in trouble. As I started to walk towards the jungle just off the beach, the little girl said to me, 'BRIAN, please stay here with me because if you go back you are going to see and feel things you don't wanna see or feel.' I stopped, turned around, and said, 'Who are you?' She answered, 'I am your guardian angel. Please stay here. Come sit down we have much to talk about.' There was a drift-log off to my left and we sat down.

I asked, 'Where am I?'

She said, 'Heaven. Well, your version of it. I knew you loved this place so we came here.'

'Am I dead,' I asked.

She said, 'Yes you are, but you can't stay here. You got to go back.'

When she said that, I could hear people talking in the jungle and I knew who they were. One was a friend I knew in highschool who had died in a car wreck. Another was my older brother, who I never met. I could not see them very well but could hear them talking with others in the jungle.

I asked, 'Why can't I stay? It's beautiful here.'

She said, 'It's not your time. You have much to do.'

I asked, What?'

She laughed and said, 'Now, if I tell you, it won't be as much fun now. Will it? You get to stay here for awhile but you got to go back and when its time to go I will let you know.'

All of a sudden it was night. She was standing back in front of me and said, 'Time for you to go back.'

BAM, I was back in my body in the emergency room at county hospital. The pain was unbearable! My whole family was there. Everyone was crying and avoided looking at me. The emergency room nurse said, 'Welcome back Mr....You were stabbed 27 times, mostly in my abdomen.' My neck was slit. They had no idea how I was still alive and didn't bleed to death. BUT I was alive and I didn't die. Well yes, I did die, but got to come back. They told me my body was thrown into a dumpster for 9 hours. The next morning, a lady who was walking her dog saw the blood trail to the dumpster and found me.

This is the first time I have told my story. I just didn't want to tell it because I think people will not believe me.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 09/24/2005

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I was hit in the head with a baseball bat and stabbed 27 times.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I was in heaven and I knew where I was. I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. It was the same but kind of different. It was better

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Being in Heaven

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual Time was strange fast and slow

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I could kind of see them in the background through the jungle

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. A place in Panama I loved to go snorkelling

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was in trouble worried about my body back on earth.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? No

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Pray every day

What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. That it was all real and mind blowing

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes How to be a better person.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin. I met my Guardian Angel

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain. I saw and met my Guardian Angel

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Its all real.

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Its all real we all get to go there when we die

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I was there and its real!

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Good or bad its just life and we get to live it and then we all get to go to heaven.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can talk with the other side, with people who have died.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I know there is a after life its great!

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was as real as real gets.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Just real as life is

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None. Very good