I was drunk and in a black out. I drove my car to the drug house to get some crack. I remember getting out of the car and asking a Hispanic man for rock/crack. The next thing that happened I was punched from behind in the nose. I hit the dirt. I always carried a buck knife and he took it from me. That's all I can remember about the assault.
The next thing that happened, all of a sudden I was on a beach sitting on a drift log with a little girl that was about fifteen to sixteen years old. She was wearing dark blue shorts and a white sleeveless shirt. She was tan, green eyes, brown curly hair, and a killer smile. I was looking at her; she was looking at me smiling. This was as real as anything you can think of. I could smell the salt air; feel the sun on my skin, wind in my hair. For some reason I knew I was getting the s*&$ kicked out of me so, I got up from the drift log, I was sitting on. I started to walk away from the girl that was sitting next to me thinking that I had to try to find myself because I was getting the s*&$ kicked out of me. As I walked away, the girl yelled out to me, 'Brian! If you leave now you're going to see and feel things you really don't want to see and feel!' I stopped walking but did not turn around. Then she said in a nice voice, 'You need to stay here with me and when it's time to go I will let you know.' I turned around, walked back to the drift log, and sat down next to the girl again. She just looked at me, smiled, and held my hand. The next thing that happened it was night time, the girl was standing, I was standing, looking at each other and she said, 'Brian it's time for you to go.'
The next thing that happened I was in the emergency room lying on a bed with my entire family standing around me. I asked, 'Where am I?' My sister said that I was in the hospital, I had been stabbed twenty-seven times and my neck slashed three times and that they don't know how or why I'm still alive! Some lady walking her dog at 6:00 am found me lying behind a dumpster in a pool of blood! That means I was stabbed twenty-seven times about 9:00 pm and was not found until 6:00 am the next day! That's 9 hours! When the emergency medical technicians found me they said I had hardly had a pulse but that I snapped to, told them my name and my mom's phone number, and then passed out. The doctor told me that I had no blood in my body and that he doesn't know how I survived all that time and that I should be dead! They don't know how something like this didn't kill me. I feel totally blessed that I'm here. I have no fear to die now because I know where I'm going. Also, I'm left with a feeling that everyone that has ever been is there and that everyone that will ever be gets to go too. I love you all, Brian.
Date NDE Occurred: Sept. 22 2005
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Beaten and stabbed multiple times.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time went way fast.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Did not know her she told me to stay and when it was time to go she would tell me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm a beach with blue water
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was there. It's there, not to worry.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was there. It's there, not to worry.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I don't know yet.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am a totally different person filled with love and awe for this world.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I feel like I can make people feel or be better.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When I was told that I was stabbed twenty-seven times and that they don't know how I'm still alive.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was as real as anything you can think of, I was there! I was totally there!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It was as if as real as today was real for you.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Love your fellow man or woman. Try to be good.