I lay on my bed, knowing that physically something was not right with me. I was bleeding but pregnant. As I lay, I was meditating to calm myself. Suddenly I saw 'me' lying on the bed but 'I' was above my sleeping body with a thin thread of golden light attached between my body and me. I floated upwards and found myself drawn to a great white light. I floated towards the light; I was welcomed by beings of light, I felt unconditional love, no pain, hardships or worries, I was bounced gently (as a floating balloon) in to the Light, where I heard a voice (male) who told me 'It's not yet time, you must go back, your work is not yet done.' The next moment, I was back, with a slight jolt feeling and opened my eyes.
Date NDE Occurred: 1996
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
Ectopic pregnancy, a walking time bomb, the doctor said.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Through it all I was aware.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Through it all I was aware.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No sense of time or space.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Brighter, sharper, stronger.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Clearer, sharper, precise, firm.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I felt I knew them, I could not see their faces, they had forms of humans but we communicated by feelings/telepathy, they were many.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Unconditional love, no pain or worries, peace, warmth.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Islam
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I do more to achieve a greater balance in my life.
What is your religion now? Moderate Islam
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I do more to achieve a greater balance in my life.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am more patient. I have more forgiveness. I am more sensitive to many emotions and vibrations in people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Because it was emotional, calm, peace, warmth, unconditional love, the feelings were deep.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, the voice telling me to go back was the same one I had heard before when I was conscious in holy places I had visited. That the Light was my home.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I talked about it soon enough and it did not bother anyone, as people understand me as a woman with faith.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real The feelings have never left me and the memory is indelibly imprinted in my life.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I have been more enhanced spiritually by the event as I was probably psychic or gifted before it and after the NDE my approach to life is different as is my approach to religion and spirituality. My approach to death as well has changed. I am unafraid of anything and work hard to be able to make sure that I return to that place I glimpsed.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It has widened my sphere of knowledge to know things, to be a better person with a mission of helping those less fortunate, to be stronger to accept the difficulties and to come through everything with huge faith and love.