I suddenly found myself in a field full of wild flowers. There were also rolling hills. There was bright light everywhere, but I didn't see a source of the light. I ran through the field in extreme happiness. Up ahead I saw a fence. The fence was made of wood logs. They were thick poles that held up two rows of wood. The bottom row was about eighteen feet off the ground, but it was hard to tell because the grass and flowers came up from the ground almost a foot. The second row of wood was about eighteen feet above the bottom row. It expanded as far as I could see. I recall thinking, 'I have to get over that fence.' However, I thoroughly enjoyed the time it took to get there. I was filled with joy, peace, and contentment.
When I arrived at the fence, I started climbing over it. I was halfway across when I felt a touch on my shoulder. I looked to see who touched me (I wasn't frightened at all) and I saw who I thought was Jesus Christ. My family didn't attend church, but somehow I knew I was looking at Jesus. He didn't have an human body and he didn't look like an angel. It was more like a spiritual being. He told me, 'You can't come yet.' I asked him why. Everything about me wanted to be over that fence. I was actually sitting on the top row with one leg on either side. I needed to experience what was across the fence. It looked the same, but it felt different. It was even better than the wonderful feelings I experienced running through the field to get there. I said, 'Please let me come to the other side.' Jesus was kind but quite firm when he said, 'No, Brandy, you must go back. There is much for you to do.'
Suddenly, I was back in my body in the emergency room. I remained in a coma for about three weeks. When I woke up, I asked for a Bible.
Date NDE Occurred: July 2, 1978
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) I was in a motorcycle accident. I wasn't wearing a helmet. According to the doctors and my family, they lost me for a few minutes in the emergency room.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was very different. I ceased being twelve years old for those moments. My thoughts and alertness far surpass what I am capable as an educated thirty-nine year old woman. It wasn't the same as the consciousness I've experienced since I came back.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was talking to Jesus.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time had no relevance.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I could see much further. What I could see was considerably brighter. Smells were intensified incredibly. My depth perception was different. There were more than three dimensions. The flowers, grass, and fence were solid. Jesus was transparent, but I couldn't see through him. He was more like different types of clear white.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The clarity was much better. Sounds didn't seem to enter my ear, they went through my body.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus was on the other side of the fence. Somehow, I did know him. He communicated love and acceptance even though he didn't let me join him. I felt very special in his presence.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was all around me. It was warm, but it didn't burn.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm There was another dimension. Describing it is difficult.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, joy, peace, contentment, excitement. I did feel frustration and disappointment when Jesus wouldn't let me cross the fence.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate None
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I know this experience is why I choose a life of servant hood. This hasn't made life any easier, but I don't regret my decision to serve God.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I know this experience is why I choose a life of servant hood. This hasn't made life any easier, but I don't regret my decision to serve God.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I understood that there is more to life and death than what we can see and experience on a daily basis. I understood that I had a purpose not yet achieved.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain It's hard to communicate because I generally feel people won't believe my experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Many times, I have the ability to see things in dreams, visions, or I sense things about people.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Now, I feel blessed to have a personal encounter with Jesus. It's odd because I still have a strong sense I haven't accomplished my purpose. Sometimes, I really wonder why I had to come back. I REALLY wanted to stay.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared my experience when I came out of the coma. The response was not very positive so I quit talking about it for about fifteen years. Then, I shared my experience with a few trusted friends who've encouraged me to tell others. I still avoid conversations unless it's clear my sharing can help someone. I usually keep this to myself.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was very real. I openly shared how real it was until people shut me down. I felt that I need to tell people what happened to me. I was quite surprised at their response. To me, it was like relating any other event in my life.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It's been twenty-seven years since my experience. I can remember what happened like it happened today. I woke up with a desire to know about God and Jesus that has not left me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? For all these years I have avoided anything to do with NDEs. I don't read books about it and I haven't researched it in any way. I don't want to be accused of making this up. Recently, I've allowed myself to watch a couple programs about it. While some of the experiences are different from mine, I've been amazed at how similar the experiences can be. I feel like writing this down and presenting it to this research project somehow will offer me freedom from the isolation I feel from this experience.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? How does a person feel about having this experience? Does it make him/her feel a sense of responsibility to others or his/her selves?