Bonnie S NDE

Experience Description

I was experiencing my first panic attack, which at that time I thought was a heart attack, so I drove myself to the nearest hospital. They admitted me due to heart disease running in my family.

They found something abnormal on the right side of my heart, which they wanted to do the catheter procedure, as I was having it done that is when I had the near death experience. It was so amazing, I felt the warmth and seeing the light so bright I think it would blind the human eye. I wanted to go see my kids to let them know everything was okay, I saw my son he was sleeping. Then I went and saw my daughter, she was at work, I saw she was sitting at a long table doing envelopes in a medical office. I know she felt my presence, I touched her shoulder, the sad thing is I felt no sadness, all I felt was love and warmth.

I then saw my mom standing there smiling at me, she did not have her hands out to welcome me.

I was still able to see everything going on in the hospital. I saw the doctor using the paddles and my body just lying there. I saw the nurse moving fast around the table (she was screaming in my face Bonnie breath, Bonnie breath) and then the same nurse's surgical cap fell off her head, which she ended up kicking under the table.

I was told by a male's firm voice to go back, and that is when I felt the last shock to the chest, which was very painful.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 02/16.2004

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain I was having heart catheter procedure due to a finding on the right side of my heart Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) When the procedure was being preformed my heart rate went over 200 bpm and I remember the doctor hitting me in the chest, and then used the paddles to shock my heart, the fourth shock is when I went back into my body.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was fully alert when I was in the intensive care unit, so it was probably about a half an hour.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I see colors around people which I never saw before.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was going through a tunnel that was nothing but brightness.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my mother who was standing there smiling at me.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was incredibility bright.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt so much love and warmth, such as being cradled with so much love like I've never experience before.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am more religious.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am more religious.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I know the dead can communicate with the living.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am currently divorced due to seeing the real person in my ex-husband.

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can see colors around people, orbs floating. I also have these dreams that are so real.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my daughter because she said she felt me by her side like I came to tell her I was leaving.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I became more spiritual among other things.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Things are different, for the good.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I see auras and orbs, is that normal after you have experienced a NDE?

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? If there is anyone who has had this experience and has the same questions I've put in here.