For the last 15 years, I had been caring for my husband who had suffered a stroke. He was bedridden the last 5 years. I was also working a fulltime job. I had neglected my asthma symptoms for some time. One night, I was putting out the trash and had a difficult time breathing. I ran into the house to get my inhaler but couldn't get any air. I told my husband, who was in a hospital bed in the living room to ‘call 911, that I am going to die.’ He couldn't do it. So I grabbed the phone on the desk, called 911 and gasped, 'I can't breathe.' This is the last thing I remember until the next afternoon when I was in a hospital bed and a doctor was at my bed, telling me I had a very traumatic event; that I had a cardiac arrest. My daughter, Andrea, was standing beside my bed, holding my hand. I was told that the emergency squad found me on the floor unresponsive with the phone in my hand. I was told that I had been intubated and became combative in the ambulance. Apparently, due to lack of oxygen to my brain, I had no short or long term memory. I remembered nothing from the time I called 911 to tell them I could not breathe. Three days later, when I came home from the hospital, I was sitting in my family room trying to figure out what happened. Then I remembered it being dark and I felt a jolt. I saw very bright multi-colored lights, mostly purples and greens. Then I heard a voice in my head say, 'Do you want to stay here with Chris (my son who passed 7 years before) or go back to be with Andrea?' Then I heard a voice in my head say, 'I have to go back to be with Andrea, she needs me.'
Date NDE Occurred: 12/21/2012
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Heart attack. Brought on by asthma attack. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Suffered an asthma attack causing cardiac arrest.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At no time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Very clear
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Very clear
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very brightly colored lights, mostly purple and green.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very calm and peaceful.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify I heard a male voice. I heard a very clear voice in my head, but at the same time, I had lost awareness of my body.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably existsá
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I felt that I was definitely with my son and that I made my decision to return without hesitation, although it wasn't my voice that I heard saying I had to go back.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably existsá
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I have since retired from working, my husband is now in a nursing home and I plan to live a very meaningful life for myself and others. Large changes in my life. I have since retired from working, my husband is now in a nursing home and I plan to live a very meaningful life for myself and others.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The knowing I was with my son is very significant since I know he is waiting for me when it's my time.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Almost immediately. I believe I have helped many others, especially other mothers who have lost children. All have thanked me for sharing my experience and I have been told how much comfort it gives them.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I have read of many NDEs. My knowledge did not have any effect on my experience.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I believe I was given the choice to come back so that I can be with my daughter. I know she would have never made it without me. I am still in awe of my experience and feel it was a gift and meant so that I can enjoy life and help people along the way.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I feel very blessed to have this chance to do wonderful things.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am so happy I can share this most amazing experience. Thank you for this opportunity.
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