Experience Description

I was brought to the Hospital by my mother because of an acute asthma attack. I suddenly felt light and I floated. I saw my mother from above rubbing my hands and pleading to the nurses to take care of me as my hands suddenly became cold and limp. At that moment, I blacked out and as sudden, as there was darkness a light shines through very bright but not blinding. I saw a closed gate suddenly opened and clouds rising around it. As I entered the gate I heard a voice telling me' Go back, Bernardette (not the name I use but Bernardita). It is not time yet. You have not met me yet.' At that instant I was revived with an injection.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1978

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Allergic reaction 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' . It was an asthmatic attack and it was the first time that an injection was done.

How do you consider the content of your experience?

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Perhaps at the time when I floated

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Perhaps at the time when I floated.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The voice I heard is not spoken . It was a voice of your subconscious. As if it was a telepathic communication

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was very light but not blinding. It's like looking at the clouds without blinking

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? It was awesome. You feel light as if the burden of illness had left you.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes An old steel gate. I was about to cross the boundary when a voice told me to go back.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes that it was not my time yet to be in that place

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes It made me a better person. More patient and more caring.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? YES. My name in Heaven which some priest or religious persons call me. I later discovered that it was the name in my birth certificate but which my parents were not aware of because it was registered by the midwife

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No I shared it with Prof. Jaime after 10 years in 1988. It was the first time I heard of NDEs

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. My name in Heaven which some priest or religious persons call me. I later discovered that it was the name in my birth certificate but which my parents were not aware of because it was registered by the midwife

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? NOTHING