Becky M NDE

Experience Description

I had a parasite in my liver. In 2013, the doctor did a liver resection. I died on the operation table. I heard the doctor talking to me and then I was gone. My grandma came for me. When she died, she was 92 and had both her legs amputated. When she came for me, she was young, healthy and walking. We talked for hours. She kept telling me to go back; it's not my time. I woke up three days later on life support with four IVs going, including one in my neck. I have had 23 surgeries since 2006. I just got a glimpse of Heaven but it was so warm, like a summer day. I saw a bright light in a tunnel. I felt no pain and it was so peaceful. I did not want to come back.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 4-2013

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. While under general anesthesia. CPR given. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I was bleeding out and crashed on the operating table.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw doctor working on me I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It seemed more senses were heightened

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'm not sure what this means. I felt pain and then I was in the tunnel.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual Slow hours that were actually days

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

The experience included: Tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I went into the tunnel but did not cross over.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandma

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright at end of tunnel

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? No comment

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience The age at which she appeared, surprised me.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Glimpse of heaven

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God probably exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That I am not done

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes How my grandma was. She said, 'You go back to the happiest time in your life.'

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life More spiritual

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Scared of what I saw and what people would think.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. My pain from before was gone.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Empathy…I saw my sister and uncle pass over

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my grandma, because I felt huge guilt from not having time to mourn her death

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Six people

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Seemed unreal like a dream

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Whom did you tell?