I was eleven years old. At this time, I was a prominent softball player. I was the pitcher of my recreational team. We had just advanced to the national tournament and were three strikes away from being the best in the country. It was all up to me. I licked my fingers as I watched my next victim approach the plate. We shared a challenging look from across the infield. She squared up to me and I went into my 'zone.' First pitch was a perfect strike, a swing and a miss. I laid the next strike right on the outer corner of the plate. She let it pass. We were one pitch from the national title. I could taste it. I threw my last pitch right to the batter's 'sweet spot.' She made contact with the ball. I heard the crack of the bat and sprang into action, realizing that the ball was heading straight toward me. Everything suddenly slowed down and became completely silent. The crowd was on their toes. I came to the realization that I couldn't stop the speeding ball. It was heading straight for my face. I ducked a bit but my efforts made no difference. The ball hit me square in the eye.
I suddenly felt my world spiral; I saw a bright light, and then total darkness. I heard the crowd gasp. I saw my childhood, my entire short life flash before my eyes like a film. I landed with a loud thud against the soft dirt of the mound. I felt I was dead. Gone. An immense feeling of peace overcame me as I let my eyes close.
I woke up with a broken eye socket and a hospital band on my wrist. The only complications I've carried from the incident are a very tender face and Alexia, a form of Dyslexia brought on by severe head trauma.
Date NDE Occurred: 'May 12, 2003'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Direct head injury 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Head trauma from a sports injury.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As I saw the ball coming toward me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I saw the ball coming toward me.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
So slow. Then so fast. Then out of my body above the mayhem looking upon my frail being.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything happened so fast.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Silence. Muffled voices.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain There were so many people who all seemed ghostly.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Incredibly bright, pure white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wellbeing, sorrow for my family, peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control My whole life played back to me.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian/Agnostic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I'm now Agnostic.
What is your religion now? Liberal Agnostic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I'm now Agnostic.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes There were so many mixed emotions and feelings involved all simultaneously.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain More crisp sense of upcoming events not yet known.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything was significant.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Immediately after I woke up I told my parents and they were horrified.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was so true and real. But I could never explain it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Same as above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No