I found myself in a perfect blackness (not a tunnel), I could feel space around me. The blackness was so deep and velvet-like. In front of me, I saw a very bright light, but not a blinding one. I started to approach the light, it grew bigger, and bigger and finally, it turned into a great light ball around which I started to move, just like a planet. The ball was radiating love and tolerance, masculine power and indifference to who I am and what I have done - it was only important that 'I was'. I couldn't get into the light although I was very close. I wanted to be in the light so much. There was wisdom, acceptance, love and creative power in the light. I woke up then and I can't remember anything else.
Date NDE Occurred: 02.02.1981
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening I took a lot of medications.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My hands were joined and I stretched them as if I wanted to jump to the water, I didn't feel anything like feet.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was unconscious.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Space - just like outer space.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No There was darkness around me but I didn't feel that I was in any kind of enclosure, I felt space. There was a bright point in front of me.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain There were no other beings; the point of light was a being or a whole group of beings.
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very bright light, but not blinding. It was getting bigger as I was coming closer to it.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Blissful state, weightlessness, flying, amazement, joy.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe But I can't remember what it was about. I knew answers to questions but I can't remember what these questions were. I was overcome with joy because of that.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I experienced acceptation and tolerance. When you are near the point of light it is not important who you are, it us important just that you are.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No I knew I had to go back. I had no choice, I felt a loss, and I didn't want to come back.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I'm peaceful and stoical (that's what my family and friends say)
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Infinite tolerance and love.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Sometimes I can predict the future, especially someone's death and I guess I have a small gift of healing people.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Everything was wonderful, apart from my return.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No