Barbara R NDE

Experience Description

I had already lost a lot of blood when I was on my way to the hospital. I had asked my husband to go with me just in case I passed out. At that moment, I wasn't bleeding profusely, but I felt well enough to take the train instead of the ambulance. I just wanted to go to the hospital of my choice, which to me was closer than the hospital that emergency medical services had chosen; besides my choice of hospital had my medical records. I got to the train station, which was only a block away, and we went up the stairs and paid the fare. Suddenly everything started going black and I couldn't hear anything. I sat down and laid my head on my husband's lap. After a few minutes, I felt fine so I got up and started toward the double doors leading to the platform. I cannot say at what point I passed out but I remember dreaming of a dark space and I saw people dressed in bright white and the feeling of I had a job to do. A job that was important in the grand design of things. A job that God gave me. But I had so many questions.

I then felt like if someone was pulling me by the back of my shirt and I felt like I was falling and I heard my husband calling me, but he seemed so far away. Then I felt him smacking me telling me to wake up. When I opened my eyes I asked him why he woke me up, I was dreaming? He yelled at me and said that I was in the train station. I know that I was in and out of consciousness because every time I awoke there were firemen and police around me. They said I went into shock, I had convulsions, and I hit my head when I fell. After they managed to stabilize me by giving me oxygen, I was taken to the emergency room. When a doctor examined me, I was bleeding like an open faucet.

The doctor took me up for emergency surgery called a 'D & C'. They prepped me and I remember dreaming again, the same thing but this time instead of darkness, there was an infinite white light. I remember seeing faces with white clothing and what looked like wings but everything happened so fast and again I felt someone pulling me by my shirt. Then I remember hearing the voice of the anesthesiologist calling me but he too sounded far, far away. I felt him pull the tube out of my mouth and he started smacking me until I opened my eyes. I have had a 'D & C' done before but they didn't put a tube in my mouth to do the procedure. I had to get two blood transfusions, I was given iron through an IV, and it still wasn't enough. For a few days after the whole trauma I had lost the concept of time and I felt peaceful and I had a high sensitivity to loud noises - it's like having a migraine without the migraine.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 5-14-2007

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related miscarriage Life threatening event, but not clinical death . Severe loss of blood due to a miscarriage.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Just before being pulled back.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just before being pulled back.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It went too fast.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It seemed like an angel but I don't remember any sound.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The second time.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes It felt like God gave me something to do.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain It is still too soon to tell.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When God gave me a job or purpose.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A few hours.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes But I never believed anyone.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Like it was a message of my purpose but it's still a bit hazy.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It seemed like a dream but it felt too real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Twice in one day, I didn't think it was possible, that makes three. I had a NDE when I was born, my mother said I was blue and I almost died.