I had tried on a new mascara that day, November 4, 2002. It made my eyes sting and tear all day. It was not possible for me to leave my post to remove it, so all day I waited. Then, at the end of the day, I got into my car and realized I had a throbbing headache.
I went across the street to the McDonalds. I wanted to get a soda to wash down the ibuprofen I was going to take.
I rounded the parking lot as I had done countless times before. Seeing I had cleared the concrete light post, I made my left hand turn. I felt I had run over a median of some sort. I whipped my head backwards to see if a new one had been installed. Nothing.
Then, when I faced forward, I realized I had hit the post I thought I'd cleared.
Now, in between the time that I looked back and looked forward, I had hit my head really hard on the hood of my SUV. (Mazda even stated in my book that instead of lunging forward in my SUV, people tend to shoot up to the roof.)
Anyway, my body stayed in the car, but my soul/mind definitely when for the trip of a lifetime.
I was laying prone on the softest stairs I had ever lain on. They were very much like clouds, but sparkly white and sharp as can be at the same time.
It was then I realized that I was being discussed by others. At that point, I realized just what I happened to be laying on and I caught my breath in surprise.
At that point, the others realized I was aware of my surroundings, but they didn't immediately address me in any way – they let me lay there.
Then, as things became clearer, I realized who they were. I'm not one to suppose the man in the middle who was so tall was Christ himself. I don't want to presume that I would be one of the people so specially chosen. So, instead, I try to believe it was my grandfather, Ellis. Facing them on the right I believe is my grandmother on my daddy's side. She seemed very anxious/nervous. While on the left of him stands the person I believe to be my mother, and she's whispering rather loudly into his ear.
I realize I'm about to be in trouble. My goodness, the stuff I've been doing lately. Overeating so much, being so despondent, not praying enough, etc. All that kind of stuff went through my mind at that moment.
Then they realized how hysterical I was getting, because I knew my actions in the last several years would probably not get me into heaven. When they saw how upset I was, they kind of... I still don't know how to describe it. All at once, they all looked at me and I just felt immediately calm, and I could feel a love I'll never know the touch of in this life. Without a word spoken between us, they told me essentially that I was okay, and that I would be all right.
I remember feeling like a little girl with a big grin of her face who's been told she's really going to get that pony for her birthday!!!
Well, next I remember they were heatedly still discussing me and now that I knew I was okay, I decided to listen to what they were saying. I heard the one to the left suggest they take me with them.
Not knowing what the future can hold for you, you tend to make some rash decisions in the heat of the moment. Such was this. I didn't lament leaving my children or grandchildren. Sisters and brothers never entered my mind. I didn't want to leave my husband. I shouted with my mind: BUT NO, I CAN'T LEAVE GEOFFREY.
The very next instant, I was scraping at the windshield with my right hand begging them to wait a minute let me think. But it was too late. I flinched at going Home, and they were gone like that.
Date NDE Occurred: November 2, 2002
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event?
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? No sadness and/or grief feelings
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Slightly drowsy
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Fast and slow at the same time.
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? They were standing in front of the white light and appeared to be in murkiness as a result. So, I only saw their general forms and gray shadows. But they were definitely people who loved me and they appeared to be dressed with clothing on like ours.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain i loved them all very dearly
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The man was very patient (remember that). The woman to his right - my grandmother - was very nervous and distressed, and the woman to his left - my mother - was very agitated, like she was trying very hard to convince him to let me come Home (heaven), this instant. Almost like she was having a temper tantrum over it. I understand now, but I didn't then, as always I thought she was being mean. But she was trying to spare me subsequent pain such as I never hope to experience again: the loss of my love for and trust in my husband.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No I was able to confirm to myself, if to no one else, that there is a God, he does exist in heaven and we go there if we're 'good' on earth.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate I am very highly spiritul but I cannot say I am conservative. I don’t "go" to church and listen to everyone complain about everyone else. I don’t like the fals smiles and the moneyplates and the ingenuine concern of the people in charch. So, especially after my NDE, I realize I no longer need to play that hypicritical game. It wont save anyone. Only thing matters is you being saved by jesus and believing with all your might in god above. That’s it. No fancy clothes, no 20 dollar collection plate donations no big expensive churches or statues. Its all about YOUR OWN soul.
What is your religion now? Moderate see above
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I got a whole lot cockier. I thought I could just tell my story and people would have to believe me. I never lied before, so why would I start now? But most people, although they truly wanted to believe me, thought I'd lost my mind. I felt I was also a little more than a little bit self-righteous. I'm paying for that one now. I forgot how God wants us to be humble.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Absolutely
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Absolutely
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Absolutely
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? Absolutely
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Slightly fearful
Do you fear death after your experience? Very fearful
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I could describe everything adequately, except the feeling of love that washed over me. There are no words for how THAT made me feel. Every time I need reassurance, I just let my memory go back to that day and try to remember that feeling. I can, but not nearly the same as when it happened.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Three out-of-body experiences. I don't remember where I was. I was just rudely reminded that I had not been in my body when my consciousness landed back in me.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best was when I realized the way they let you know things are alright. That was truly a feeling I wish could be bottled and given to every person in the world. The worst is that I was so quick in my desire to come back to earth. I wish I would have let it play out more to see what they intended.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because I was awake the entire time. I did not pass out. I know I went from my car right to those steps. When I expressed fear of leaving my husband, I was clunked right back down into my own body, and I felt myself re-enter and it hurt.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It is September of 2007. In 2004, I had a heart transplant. In 2006, my husband divorced me. I am one year from my divorce. I have a lot less than I had one year ago. But I will always have this experience to carry me through everything.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No, it was an easy questionnaire with very good questions to prompt the memories and get the narrative flowing for me. Thank you.