About four years ago, a childhood friend of mine, Kelvin, died. He and his parents were on their way to Santa Domingo, but they didn't make it, the plane had crashed and they were found dead. About three years later, my girlfriend Valerie died of excessive blood loss and severe brain injuries that took place in a car crash. I was in that car with her and her mom, and somehow I was the only one that survived. After those incidents and the death of my parents, I convinced myself to be alone, I gave up hope, and I was sad and depressed for about a year...
(A year later on February 21, my birthday).
I was in a car with Valerie's dad Jason. We were headed towards the cemetery where Valerie was resting. It was snowing and the road wasn't that clear to see. Jason and me were talking about how wonderful life would've been if death never existed, and in the process, I got to know how wonderful this man truly was.
Jason loses control of the car and he yells to me screaming from the bottom of his lungs 'Don't worry you'll be fine, I'll be fine.'
The car flips over and Jason and I go flying out of our car from through the windshield. I was on the ground with snow surrounding me. I looked around me in search of Jason even though I couldn't see clearly because the blood was covering my face. I still lifted my head and saw him and yelled for him, 'Jason, Jason, Jason!!!' I heard no reply. As I looked towards him a second time more closely, I saw no body movements, no sign of breathing. I was about to burst into tears, but then I felt painful sting in my heart. My eyes were going blank. My fingers were going numb. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't feel. Everything went blank, just dark and empty space was seen. All of a sudden, I could feel myself, in a tunnel, it was dark, it had fire surrounding it in the inside. I was going through this tunnel and out from that tunnel I appeared in this universe. I was covered in a bright light, it felt warm, and peace surrounded me, I felt happy, and wanted. I went straight down in a narrow path and I realized a woman, she had dark blonde hair and looked at me, but I went right past her. I saw planet earth and right across from it was four earthly shaped worlds that were surrounded in an intense light. That pierced my soul and bought me joy.
In front of my eyes appeared all the prophets of religious teachings - Christianity, Islam, Judaism, etc. In the middle was a bright human shaped light. It spoke to me saying that it was God, I didn't believe it at first (who would), I asked 'it' 'Who Are you?' And 'it' replied back to me saying 'I am just like you, lonely, not wanted, sad. I have set forth countless members of humans on this planet, I've created these planets out of my own ability, I have created prophets to explain my existence, but yet these humans that I have set forth deny my existence. They believe in others that have no existence.' I asked 'it' 'Why haven't you given them any chances?' With a reply so calm, 'it' said to me 'Arifur have you not felt alone and not wanted? Have you not given up because you understand that people won't believe your existence, thus I am sure that when you return, and when you speak of this moment, whoever you speak with will not believe it. Let them believe what they want, for all I ask is just for them to accept the fact that another God exists. And just from that belief I will be happy.'
'Why me?' I said.
'It' said to me with a sad reply, 'You're the only one that I have found strong enough to deal with this pain. You share the same feelings that I have felt, the feeling of loneliness, the feeling of being not noticed, that's why I have chosen you. From here on out you will never forget this moment, and others will never realize the true meaning to life, only you will understand life and only you can hold my existence.'
'What proof do I have of your existence, I'm unconscious. Maybe this is all an illusion?' I asked 'it'.
'Maybe, just maybe I don't exist and maybe this is an illusion, but what proof will you have of that. You are not unconscious, you are dead. But you have a second chance, I'll let you live. But before that I want to say that I am truly sorry for the pain I have caused, Valerie, Kelvin, your parents, Val's and Kelvin's parents. They're all safe. They're in Heaven with me.'
I was crying really hard.
And then the 'it' to me was truly known as God, I was convinced enough.
God asked me 'Why cry?'
In reply, I said 'I'm happy that they are doing well. Thank You'.
And then all of a sudden GOD said something that until this day has me thinking.
'Do you want to see Valerie and Kelvin?'
I didn't reply.
And so he said, 'Although you don't want to speak, I can feel your heart telling me that you want to see them really bad. Believe in me, believe in my existence.'
(All of a sudden, this tunnel was sucking me in. In an instant, I was in a plane. I was sitting in a middle seat, and to my left was Kelvin and to my right was Valerie, They had grown up. Kelvin smiled to me and Valerie grabbed my Hand.
Kelvin looked to me and said 'It's okay, You're gonna be fine. This is real Arifur, I am real. Don't give up, You're gonna be stronger then anyone on this planet. Believe in God, His existence is real.'
The plane shifted to an angle and started going downwards, Valerie grabbed my hand and said to me, 'Don't be afraid, You're safe, You're free, believe. There's someone out there and that girl shares the same pain that you share, so don't cling on to me, move on, live and breathe and you'll eventually meet her. I... you Arifur.'
As the plane started going downwards I closed my eyes, and everything blackened. I still had my feeling of existence. I opened my eyes and there I was, in the hospital. I moved a little and everyone (doctors, etc.) looked at me shocked, as if they had just seen a ghost. Everything to me just seemed like a bad dream, but in reality, it was real. I had just experienced the truly meaning to my life.
Date NDE Occurred: 'February 21, 2005'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Other I was known to be dead for 7 minutes
I was dead, and I knew it but I wasn't sure about what would happen to me.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Right from the start of the experience I had capability to know what was going on.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I remember being in a plane, and when that plane went down, I was going down with it. I was grabbing onto my girlfriend who passed away, and it felt so real. I grabbed onto a seat, and it felt like it was actually real.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear things from a far distance; I would hear voices calling to me.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I passed through a dark tunnel, and then I was covered with this bright light.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They were inside this airplane that Kelvin my childhood friend who passed away from taking it to Santa Domingo. (I don't want to say which.) And yes I knew them, Kelvin and Valerie (my girlfriend who passed) they were inside that plane. As Valerie grabbed my hand, Kelvin said 'It's okay, everything will be fine, believe in God, He's doing this to test your strength. He's doing this not to hurt you but to see how strong you are.' And Valerie let go of my hand and said 'I thank you. You'll meet her, You'll meet a girl who will love you and who will share your story, so move on, live for that moment, live for that future.'
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was the size of earth and there were four of these bright earth shaped worlds.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was out of earth and i saw a comparison between earth and the four bright eartly shaped worlds...
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I saw the doctors examining my dead body, and I could feel them using tools to configure my death, but it wasn't very painful, I only felt pinches while I was in the other dimension.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was a review that I was in. I was in the same plane that Kelvin crashed in real life. From that experience I learned that God cares and that I have to move on from the past and I have to create my destiny.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future It was exactly as I was told, I met this girl that understood and shared the same pain I had, she looked exactly like the girl I had in my vision.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate 'Didn't have that much Faith, Because of what I've been going through in life...'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist 'I Have changed over the years, and my nde story will explain that.'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I saw Jesus Christ, and then I saw a Bright Human shaped light, and next to him were a lot of prophets that I was aware of.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes People would see me as to be weird and different, when reality is that it is indeed true.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? See question #18.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes God himself, and the souls that have spoken told me clearly that I had a choice to return or stay, I said yes.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I saw it to be true, because the things that I've been told that would happen, had happened.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still believe that the experience was real - see question #41.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I've seen God speak and heard him say to me how lonely he is, how, people deny his existence and believe in other gods. I have witnessed a different God that this world has not heard about. But out of the billions of people, he chose to speak with me. He said to me through his speech 'I can share your pain.' And it was then that I realized God is what we make of him.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No.