Suddenly, I was in a tunnel that was illuminated by a strong blue light. It was pleasantly warm and I felt endless peace and love. I wasn't afraid because I heard my deceased grandmother call my name. I was curious and flew further into the tunnel. At a certain moment, I made the decision to make a right turn and go back. At that instant, I found myself back in my body with doctors inserting tubes into me.
Sometime before this, I had seen myself lying on the operating table with people standing around me. Among them was my sister-in-law who was assisting in the operation. Later I could describe all that went on during the surgery and also the contents of the operating room. I also knew that in the operating room next to me, a lady had died. The doctors seemed a bit shocked when I mentioned this to them later.
Date NDE Occurred: februari 1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
After the operation I could not, for some unknown reason, breath independently.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? In the tunnel - at the moment I decided to turn back.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard everything.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A sort of tunnel with a vivid warm blue light at the end.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes From the direction of the light. My grandmother called my name but I could not see her, due to the sparkling of the light.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A strong blue light that gave off a pleasant warmth. It was so bright it was hard to look at, like the sun but more blue.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Comfort, peace. Absolutely no fear.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control That the boundless love a person (such as my grandmother) may have for me never ends.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate geen
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate geen
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have a sharper sense of the feelings of others, both positive and negative.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I sometimes dream of things that I can't quite place but that do eventually happen. Shortly after my NDE, I went to pick up my husband after work late in the evening. On the road, I passed two hitchhikers, but I had a feeling and didn't stop to give them a lift. The same night I had a dream that Jeanneke was dead. Jeanneke was the girl who worked at the cigarette store. I learned later that the two hitchhikers I had seen were her murderers.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, it was meaningful because I am no longer fearful of death.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes But I kept silent about it for a long time because I was afraid that If I talked about it, people might think I was just seeking attention.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real No one told me that the lady in the operating room next to mine had died and yet I knew. This should not have been possible.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still know, after all these years, what happened then and in minute detail.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I wonder why people won't believe us? Why can't these experiences be intellectually acknowledged?