Suddenly I found myself at the end of a dark tube (I don't know how I got to this point). There was a very luminous, blue light, with a fuzzy look. I saw many people coming towards me. When they were quite close, I recognized my mother (deceased 1995) with my father (ditto 1972), my grandparents (1966 and 1971), my great-grandmother (1970) together with my great-grandfather, whom I never knew. All of them, and me too, were about thirty-five years old. All, and me too, were dressed in a blue tunic tied at the waist by a cord. There were also many other people that I had no time to recognize. They were all welcoming towards me. When mom came near me, she said, 'It's not your time to come here now; you still have things to do on earth. Go back and fight.' This was not the kind of language my mother used, previously.
Straight after this, I was sucked back into the tube through which I had arrived, and catapulted into a corner of my (hospital) room. I was there, dazed, in a fetal position, and I could see my body on a bed (with yellow sheets), with many people milling around me. A woman applied the defibrillator paddles and I was lifted up from the corner of my room and thrown back into my body.
I began to talk about this to my family as soon as I emerged from my foggy state. My husband has never been able to confirm to me whether I had defibrillation; it was only a year later that a doctor confirmed this to me.
Date NDE Occurred: 21janvier1998
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I'd been knocked over by a car while crossing a wide street. I had serious cranial trauma: fracture of the temporal bone including the internal pars petrosa, temporal and intraventricular cerebral hematoma. Transfer to the neurosurgical unit of the University Hospital in Amiens (fifty-six miles), coma (twenty hours), respiratory and cardiac arrest, resuscitation by crash-cart.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the light facing my mother, and when I was in the corner of my room after I returned, before rejoining my body.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I'm normally VERY near-sighted (twenty dioptries), but there I had no glasses, without them I can't see further than four inches. There, I saw the people coming towards me and back in my room I saw clearly what was going on over three yards away. My eyesight without corrective lenses is extremely weak, but there I had normal eyesight.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I came back through a cylindrical tube which opened in a corner of my room and catapulted me onto the floor. I have no memory of leaving my body.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes They came towards me from far away; they wanted to talk with me. In front, there were members of my family, whom I had known, apart from my great-grandfather. They all were the same age (me too), an age when I had not known them, for the most part (thirty-five years old). All were smiling at me, only my mother spoke to me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I came into a white light and in the distance it was pink and gold, like a sunrise.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm C'étai un espace sans limites ,lumineux, blanchâtre mais à l'horizon c'était doré, rose. Le sol, ou ce qui servait de sol était comme un nuage.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Surprise, peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future After this accident, I have predicted events on several occasions.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I was catholic, nothing has changed.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I was catholic, nothing has changed.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I don't remember.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have put relationships of 'convenience' to one side. I looked for, and found, people who at one time or another have meant something in my life.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes It has happened that I predict events.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes As soon as I woke up, I spoke about it. Reactions were varied: my husband thinks I went through a weird experience; my son says, 'You fell on your head!!!'
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had already heard about some people having been through this, but I did not believe in it, and looked for a rational explanation (I'm a math teacher, so very rational). That did not affect my experience, especially as I've always heard about the moment when people leave their body and are drawn toward 'somewhere else'. I, on the other hand, have no memory of leaving, only of returning.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I cannot explain this; I feel it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still cannot explain it, I feel it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Even though I think 'Over there, it was lovely', something in me tells me that suicide is not to be contemplated.