I went through a very dark black tunnel. It was the blackest black possible. Then what seemed like a door opened and I entered what was the most beautiful place with the most beautiful music ever. I was just so happy to be there. Then, I was pulled back out through the door and again through the black tunnel. I felt a hand on my cheek. A nurse said she was just trying to save my life. I remembered later that I had said 'So who asked you,' to the nurse. I didn't want to come back and have never been afraid of death since. Now though I am afraid that I might not go back to that wonderful place so now I am afraid.
Date NDE Occurred: 'November 15, 1996'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Twenty-seven hours after open heart surgery. Two heart valves replaced with titanium and a third rebuilt from materials of the two replaced.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal All of my sensory being seemed to be relaxed and alert more than I can ever remember.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the wonderful place that was so beautiful.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? The music of what I am sure was angels singing was more beautiful than any opera I have ever heard.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The blackest black imaginable. Like a tunnel without solid sides.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light only came after the door to heaven opened.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Already described. A door opened and it was the most beautiful place imaginable with the most beautiful music possible
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Extremely relaxed with no pain or stress.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control To die is faster than a blink of my eye. There is no pain in death.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate None
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate None
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes No longer make value judgments on others. Much more tolerant of others.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The beauty of the experience I can't find the words to express. Also the music. I am sure it was angels singing.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The place I call heaven. I want to go back as soon as possible.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They had a wonderful feeling of wellbeing because they were afraid of dying and I took away their fear.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I was assured by the doctors that I did not have any drugs in my system that would cause any sort of experience like I did. I was gone for over eight minutes.