I noticed my body separating from me, as I was drawn towards a strong white light at the other end of a tunnel which itself was completely dark. As this happened I could hear and faintly perceive those who were in my vicinity. Due to gaps in my memory, I cannot recall in detail what happened, but only isolated facts, such as being welcomed by someone who was a member of my family, though I cannot be specific as to who it was, all I can remember is a part of the message he (or she) gave me. This Being was surrounded by light and by other people, but I could not see them well, they were like silhouettes, or shadows. I was told that I should not be there, that it was still not my time that I had to go back to those I had left on earth and solve the problems of my present and future life. I was also warned about what could happen if I committed the same act at some future time, along the lines of: 'Death could stay with you without offering the chance to come back,' and that I needed to cure the evil, which I had in my body (referring to the overdose). This was actually a warning made out of love. I could feel how the person addressing me was protecting and counseling me just like a mother scolding her child. I did not want to come back, and neither can I recall the moment when I regained consciousness, I just woke up next day and repeated to myself what I had been told, so as not to forget. I don't remember much else.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/06/2011
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal Just before I could approach the light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just before I could approach the light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I don't know how long it lasted, but the subsequent confusion was extreme.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could just see myself surrounded with light and silhouettes, which were facing towards me.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I recall a variety of sounds passing between my unconscious mind and those who surrounded me, but I cannot recall being able to make out anything but the words of a distracted friend, a girl, saying that I should come back to them.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes It was a very dark tunnel.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes It was as if they came out of the light, waiting for my arrival, then communicated to me that I should not be with them, that I had to go back and 'extract the evil from my body', as well as confronting the life ahead of me. I should not place my life in danger, as 'death might get confused, and stay with me'. They spoke of my heightened sensitivity, which allowed me greater contact or perception of their messages. They spoke about a person in my life with whom I had established a connection of minds and that I should not attempt to make it a physical relationship, as we were already connected 'mentally' and that would last forever.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A bright light at the other end of the tunnel.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wellbeing, some fear, confusion. I repeat, I did not want to return, it was as if I were being forced to.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Simply my love of life and of those around me. I was warned not to play games with it. They knew I had a fixation with death but I had a lot to come in my life, which I must come back to live and enjoy. I take it as a message of love towards me and those around me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that they told me I should not be with them and not to do it again - it was as if whoever was speaking to me was warning me that next time they would not be able to intervene for me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The next day I spoke with some friends, they were impressed and amazed, as is normal.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read a number of different experiences and I have had another similar one, but on a smaller scale, where I just recall seeing the tunnel with the light at the end, but without going through it nor contacting anyone at the other end.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It really made me appreciate my existence here more, I truly believe we are here for some reason and I want to know what that is.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain Not near death, but I have had experiences during sleep, as if my body was conscious while I slept, and wanted to wake up, without being able to. When I do awake, I feel more tired.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No.
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