Experience Description

It was beautiful, indescribable really. I floated to a light from which a kind of goodness emanated. The light was bright but not blinding. I saw the shadow of a being; I think the outline was female. She smiled at me and I felt happy and somehow comforted and protected. I was not afraid. I was happy to find myself immersed in this beautiful light.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1986

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As I floated to the person in the light.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I floated to the person in the light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was somehow clearer and brighter.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was dark all around me, only the light shone.

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The female form at the edge of the light and she smiled at me with infinite goodness and kindness.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was bright and soft. It was not uncomfortably bright or glaring. It was inviting and comforting and serene.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Ich konnte kurz hinter das Licht sehen und sah eine friedvolle Landschaft.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt very happy, comforted, and protected. I was certainly not afraid; it was more a certain curiosity about a new existence.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I had and still have the feeling that no one can truly understand this experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Sometimes I dream of similar things.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I am no longer afraid to die since this experience. One experiences a peace that does not exist on earth.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Three months after the experience. The people were skeptical but they grinned.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Because I felt peaceful and somehow happier.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still have no fear of dying and since this experience, I experience life more intensely and I live. Now also small things bring me joy.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Sometimes when I am lying very quietly in bed, I can consciously leave my body and watch myself from above.