I remember being in an area where there were other beings, but I couldn't make out any one particular face or person. They were tall and everyone seemed to be glowing. I felt a TREMENDOUS sensation of Joy. I was happier than I had ever felt in my entire life. There was no pain, only this entirely consuming feeling of Joy. I felt like laughing it was so powerful.
The light was golden and bright and I could hear this music that is totally indescribable. It permeated the air - came from everywhere and nowhere - and is unlike any music I've ever heard on earth.
I could tell there was someone next to me, and then I was told I had to go back.
I then woke up to being bagged with the operating room staff yelling at me to breathe and 'come back to us.' I tried to breathe and felt a searing ripping pain through the middle of me and I started to cry because I was so upset that I was back.
Date NDE Occurred: September 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related Other: 'stopped breathing during/after surgery, resuscitated in recovery'
I had surgery on my abdomen. The anesthesia made me go too far under and I stopped breathing.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I heard the music and felt such tremendous Joy. I just knew where I was and that everything was going to be okay.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No sense of time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was brighter - but I wasn't able to see clearly really - it was like I didn't have enough time to completely become aware of my surroundings before I was ripped back out of them.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Very clear hearing, the music was from EVERYWHERE, not muffled, and in my normal life I am deaf in one ear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I don't recall doing so.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Tall bright beings in white, though I couldn't make out faces, only figures.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Bright white and golden.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm it was clearly a different dimension or location but uncertain the level or location of it.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Pure Joy and Happiness. Elation.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Just a feeling of knowing, and knowing all would be alright.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I am confident I will see those that pass again, when I join them there.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Parts of it are difficult to describe, but I can remember it to this day very vividly.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Dreams of people before they die - usually the night before or day before that they come to say goodbye and then wake up to discover they passed in the night - or during the day before.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The music, the feeling of Joy and the light.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shared with family immediately, they believed me, some are comforted some try to logical it away with explanations.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Some, but only through reading and hearing about one my sister had as a child, only in hers she remembered going through a cold dark tunnel.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I have never remembered anything so clearly and felt so confident of something as that experience.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Same reasons as above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No