It all started seconds before the crash occurred I got this really scared feeling then a feeling of complete peace, like everything was going to be alright. For an instant, time stood still. I had my four children with me; Autumn, five years old; Summer, two years old; James, eighteen months old; and Brandon, three months old. I was scared to death for them. If it was not for the children needing me, I could have just let that feeling of calm and love take me away. Then I came back right when my van got smashed by the other car. I remember some lady pulling my oldest daughter from the car. Then I got out of the car. I was pretty shook up. But when I saw my kids were okay, I was fine. I don't know why I didn't die, my van was totaled the whole front end on the driver's side smashed in. I am just glad, you know something told me that day to make my daughter Autumn sit in the back and I am so glad she did because the air bag popped out on that side first and she probably would have died.
Date NDE Occurred: 11-18-2009
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Accident 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? For the brief seconds before it occurred yes it seemed like everything was in slow motion then I felt like if I was going to die it would be fine.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It seemed like time stood still.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything was so much brighter.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was complete silence.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared at first then complete love, the best feeling I have ever had.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I learned that I am worth loving to.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in God more now.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God more now.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I live every day to the fullest now.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Well it happened seconds before the crash I felt scared but then at peace.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I seem to sense when people are troubled by something.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The feeling of complete love and peace.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Two hours after it happened.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I thought about it and I have never felt so loved in my life.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can't explain it but I know it was real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I am not afraid to die now.