I had taken over four hundred different pills and then laid down. That was on Thursday at lunch time. I was alone and planned it so no one would find me. But I was found unconscious on Friday afternoon. On the way to the hospital, I died three times. At one point I was aware that I felt like I was dreaming, and I turned around I was in a large hospital cubicle. I saw that there was someone laying on the trolley and I looked and it was me. I was naked and the curtains was open. I felt very cold. I tried to pull the cover over myself. I was rather annoyed that I couldn't make the nurses aware that I was cold, very cold and naked. I wandered around the nurses’ station, and then I shouted but never actually opened my mouth. Will please someone cover me up?! Please. My mum came round the corner with my husband and she immediately covered me up. She too was furious and I knew she felt my anger. Then it all went black!
Later on when I died again, it was like a dream. I saw my stepfather, who I considered my real Dad; he gave me a rush of love and told me that this wasn't my time. I had to go back. I was reluctant. I didn't want any more pain. I didn't have the strength any more. He surrounded me with more love and told me I would find strength and help. I just had to ask. I had to go back. I remember crying and then I woke up aware that I was in a hospital in intensive care rigged up to all manner of machines. A nurse removed a pipe from down my throat and then I felt my dad kiss me on my cheek. Later on my mum confirmed I was left naked and she did go mad at the doctors.
Date NDE Occurred: July 2001
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Suicide attempt Clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have always known things. Who was pregnant and with what sex. I have read cards for people since I was thirteen. I am aware of spirits. I know when people are lying. I am very empathic with other people’s emotions.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Most people I share this get very emotional.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain