As a child growing up I've often fainted at school or when too hot. On this occasion it was absolutely something else!!!!!!! It was an old girlfriend's birthday so we decided to go out to a Thai restaurant. At this time I was very much into healing, alternative medicine, ideas about life after death, what's it all about stuff, questioning my own existence, travelled at lot with my work then - musician - and had my adventures as well. I'd always felt that there had to be more to life than this!! I was fit, healthy and full of energy, always with a positive attitude about life, etc. The evening I collapsed was TOTALLY unexpected and OUT OF THE BLUE! After a couple of drinks plus starter, I started to feel strange but carried on trying to talk, etc. My girlfriend noticed the color change out of me. I went from my normal red face to a color like grey/very pale as if all the blood in me was going. I couldn't control a thing and could feel inside that I was panicking and trying to control my breathing. My girlfriend was really scared but couldn't do a thing, only see the color begin to go away. As time went on I told her I felt like I was dying and what was happening to me was uncontrollable. It wasn't fainting; it was something that I could never really put into words.
The next thing (apparently) was that I slid and hit my head on the restaurant wall and then fell the other way onto the floor taking whatever was on the table completely out of it!!!! My girlfriend tried to get me back by the usual methods but I was totally elsewhere. The restaurant called emergency services and staff and my girlfriend checked for breathing and pulse, yet neither was there. They thought I'd died and my girlfriend burst into tears waiting, hoping, the ambulance would arrive.
For me I was somewhere else - firstly, it was very dark and then I felt as if I was traveling at speeds as if being on a magic carpet, traveling to different places at speeds, which don't exist on earth. After a while, I went into a tunnel, which eventually became brighter and brighter - absolutely unbelievable. When I stopped moving/travelling I was greeted by voices/people that I don't remember (and still don't) but where I was felt absolutely peaceful, loving, welcoming and real. For me I didn't what to return back to my body but after discussions with these people was told very clearly these words by one person, 'ALLAN, THIS IS NOT YOUR TIME NOW, THERE ARE THINGS THAT YOU MUST STILL DO ON EARTH, YOUR LIFE IS STILL AHEAD OF YOU THEREFORE YOU MUST RETURN!!!' I remember pleading with them that I didn't want to go back but to no avail - the next thing was I opened my eyes and saw my girlfriend who was hysterically crying whilst lying on the restaurant floor.
Date NDE Occurred: about march 1989
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No collapsed and felt like I was going to die Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I remember the whole experience as if it was yesterday.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Amazing lights - not of this world.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I've said I'm not sure who they were.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Impossible to explain - totally unbelievable.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Total love, calmness, peace, happiness, fearlessness.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist 'always believed that there's one god/leader for us all. Church of England, none practicing...'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate 'Church of England, although not practicing.'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? How close to death I felt I was and then feeling so alive/connected to a higher being. Words can never do what happened to me justice.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I met someone about three years later on an island called Boenholm (Danish) and after one minute talking she openly said to me, 'Have you had a NDE?' In common was that she'd had one too on the birth of a child and she told me she could 'see it in my eyes'!! She was about fifteen years older than me from Sweden.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I saw a doctor, went to hospital for tests and they found nothing wrong with me. I knew in my heart that what happened was true.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real Life changing and incredible.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There's life after death without doubt, but so hard to describe it. I'm so glad it happened to me and since I've shared my story and comforted many people who doubt life or are lost or feel afraid.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Why me?