Experience Description

In June of 2001, I had been working at Dunkin Donuts as the manager. I had not felt right for a few days. On the fourth or fifth day of feeling sick, I had come downstairs and somehow lost consciousness on the kitchen floor.

It was around 8:30 am or so when I was found by my grandmother. She got me up off the floor, and I can remember her getting me into the emergency room. They rushed me in to a room. I can recall an IV bag. They were squeezing the fluid into my vein. I felt drops of the water hitting my face. The last thing I remember is that I could hear them talking and then I heard nothing. My organs shut down because I was very septic. From what my grandmother said, they had to use the paddles to bring me back to life. I was in the emergency room from around 9:00 am until 6:00 pm, until I was stable enough to be moved to the intensive care unit where I spent 4 days. After that, I spent 3 days on the recovery floor.

During the time I was in the emergency room, I was taken into the universe. I was literally in space. There were thousands of energies with me and we were all watching the earth turn itself inside out. It looked like a black hole does, but was red like flowing lava. There was one larger energy with us, I can not say this was God, as I didn't ask the energy's name. But as I witnessed the earth, I looked around and asked, 'Where is my family?' The large energy said, 'Who is here is who is meant to be here.' The fear and panic I was feeling immediately went away and I felt very calm. Then I asked, 'Why is this happening?' Again, the larger energy replied, 'This is what has to be done.'

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: June 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function) I had septic shock and blood poisoning.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness I felt it was the same as I had before the experience. I had the same thoughts as I do now.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the entire thing, I was very aware of the sounds and what I was seeing.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time is nothing … it lost all meaning.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? No

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't feel there was a difference in my vision; I was just taking in all of it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing seemed the same as now.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain There were thousands of energies, they were beings but like me; an energy not a being with a body.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Scared, fear, extreme calm and peace, in awe of what I was seeing.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I watched the earth cleanse its self from all that lived here. It turned itself inside out and flowed like lava around itself. Like what a black hole looks like on paper, but continuously flowing.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths spiritual

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me

What is your religion now? Other or several faiths spiritual, Indigenous teachings .

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have more faith.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The larger energy spoke in a man's voice, and as I was looking for my family and asked the energy where they were, he said that who is here is meant to be here. Then when I asked why the earth was turning itself inside out, he said that this is what needs to be done.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain that the earth is going to go through a rebirth.

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes It just strengthened my belief that we come from the stars.

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes The larger energy seems to be God-like. I'm not 100 percent sure, if that was he, but I almost feel as though it was a god or a higher being. God definitely exists.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes The thousands of energies, to me, say that our consciousness continues.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? No

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. 9-11 happened 3 months later. My ex bought me a dishwasher and a pool for our home.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some have had NDEs, and others think it's scary or they appreciate my experience.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes From TV shows, and other people having experiences

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No