About eight people counting myself were in a small room talking and having a great time. I started feeling odd, having anxiety and mixed emotions about everyone around me. I then decided to go outside and get fresh air. Everyone followed me out and as they were all just talking and making jokes, I was overcome with all the feeling and emotions from everyone there. I felt like I could see inside all of these people and it frightened me at first.
I couldn't breathe properly and asked a friend if he could help me to my car. As I was walking to my car, my legs gave out from under me. Later after that, a friend I asked for help said that I turned an instant pure white and said it was like I had passed out but wasn't breathing. He said I was dead weight, and felt like I was dead. Everything became dark but then a light brighter than anything I have ever seen flashed. I then was watching everyone run to me and try to wake me. I was standing over myself with all the other people. I could hear them screaming at each other and I felt all their emotions. They were scared and confused.
One person kept screaming, telling them to go to the hospital. I felt like I was talking to them, calming them down. I helped them carry me to my car and place me in the passenger seat. I knew I was watching myself but I felt helpless and excited at the same time. The whole time I was trying to communicate to my friends. I came back to my body suddenly. The first thing I said that they could actually hear me say was ‘I'm fine I don't need to go to the hospital.’ I felt like a tiny figure for about fifteen minutes. I actually felt like everyone and everything around me was giant. It was a shock. Afterward I didn't know how to react or what to say. I knew what had happened but didn't at the same time. I didn't tell them about what happened to me until months later.
Date NDE Occurred: June 2005
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Poor diet, short of breath, passing out' Clinical death I was unhealthy at the time. I had poor eating habits and exercised a lot. I was having short of breath and became frightened. People around me thought I had then passed out and said I was like dead weight.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was very alert. I thought I was helping them carry myself to my car. I thought I was talking but no one could hear me.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I had mixed emotions. I was scared and frightened but at the same time felt, in a way, at peace and liberated.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I started to become more frightened and was scared that I wouldn't be back to my body. I almost thought that was how people died for a second.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I belief now that our consciousness and bodies are two separate things. If one dies one can still life on.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part of the experience was just being able to pick up on the thoughts of people around me. The worst part was seeing myself in the state that I was in and how I looked. It was scary.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I was uncertain of the reactions of others. After telling a few people and seeing that they were believers and understood it, I feel a lot better about the event.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I wish this experience on everyone. It's an eye opener.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain