Experience Description

The first time I hung myself in the bathroom. Suddenly, I felt out of my body. I was floating and I could move my body but I couldn't turn around. I presumed that I was dead. There was nothing interesting about being dead. I sensed hours passing and I was kind of sleeping. Suddenly, I heard my name being called from the most beautiful voice I ever heard. The voice was soft, profound, soothing, and loving as it called, 'Adrian.' I tried to turn and look toward the voice, but I couldn't move. Again, 'Adrian.' I answered, 'Yes, I'm here.' 'Do you know what you have done?', I heard. 'No and I don't care,' I replied. Again the voice called, 'Adrian.' I felt wind. The wind was very soft and it began to blow slowly. Everything was black; no flashes, nothing but darkness. Some thoughts crossed my mind.

Then some luminescence began to shine. Then, I saw the faint light as it changed to two lights and something square among them. Then I saw three lights and some shadows on the left side. Then it was four candles around a casket. The were three shadows, one was standing and the other two were kneeling. The voice asked me, 'Is this what you want?' I answered that I didn't care. The soft wind blew on me again again, closer to the shadows. I felt their pain and heard them sobbing. The shadow who was standing was my father and my mother was kneeling. The other kneeling shadow was my grandmother who died two or three years before. I never thought of that and cried to return. The wind blew again. I woke up wet and with throbbing pain on my head. The pipe broke and I was on the floor.

The second NDE, was in May 1982. I was driving and my car engine died. I got out of the car to check itout to fix it. Somebody got out of the car behind mine, maybe trying to help. But, I didn't trust him. Something happened and, suddenly , the driver of the other car came out, looking for a gun. Some comments were made. I went to my car to start the engine. He was there with his revolver. I got out of the car and he shot me. In the hospital they send me to emergency surgery.

Suddenly I woke up. What a beautiful day! What a light! There was a very pretty river to my left, and an interesting desert to my right. I kept walking near the river and turned to look at it. Across the river was a river beach. Beyond the beach was an incredible forest. I tried to see the sun, but couldn't turn around. I kept walking and began to ask myself how thirsty I would be later in the walk. I kneeled to drink from the river. As I got water in my hand and almost to my mouth, I heard a voice. It said, 'Don't drink that!' It was the same voice from the first NDE. I dropped the water, got up, and looked around. But I didn't see anybody so I kept walking. I was thinking, 'What a beautiful forest.' When I almost jumped in the river to swim across, I heard the voice say, 'Adrian, no, that's not water!'.

I kept walking. Suddenly, I sawa boat. I approached and saw some weird-looking rocks near the boat. I got closer and the rocks were were people who were sitting and looking at somebody talking to them. I approached them. Some people looked at me and smiled. I got behind the person who was standing. I tried to ask him if I could use the boat. He started to talk to them again. I waited for a long time. Then I poked his shoulder and asked him, 'Excuse me Sir, can I use...' He turns around. I blurted 'You Son....!, You really exist!' More happiness overcame me and I embraced Him. He smiled at me and asked me, 'What are you doing here?'The person was the source of The Voice! I asked something and the answer was, 'Is not your time. Your son is not born yet; there are many things to do. You have to go back.' I said 'Wait, no!' He answered, 'We'll see each other, don't worry. Go back'.

I woke up in the recovery room. The nurses treated me well but, acted strange when they were near me.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1965 and 1982

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Suicide attempt. While under general anesthesia. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function). The first time experiencing it I hung myself when I was 13 years old. The second time I was shot and taken to the hospital's emergency room.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal .Very hard question. The closest answer I can think of; I could pass the MCAT, the GRE, etc. with no problem at all.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time>

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normal vision 20/20. Good vision 10/20. Again, the trees were half a mile on the other side. I differentiated the leaves in the trees. I couldn't see what was on my back but, I think I could feel it.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Very clear sounds.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I'm not sure of the sensations when I came back. But, not when I went.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Answer on question one; First episode the Voice took me to my father, my mother and my grandmother. My grandmother died two years before.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light

Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes best answer in question one, second episode.

The experience included: An unearthly landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I answered in question 5.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

The experience included: Life Review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

The experience included: Future Visions

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future. I have dreams, even today of problems in the world and people who are going to die. No lottery numbers unfortunately.

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a Boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain The river.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated Born and raised in a catholic family. Not a religious person. Looking for answers after these events.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I'm not a church-goer. But, in the last two Saturdays I went to mass in the Catholic church. The last two Sundays I went to mass at my wife's church. And, it changed my approach to life since I was in the hospital in 1982.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Other. Christian I attend Catholic church and Baptist church.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Increased my love, respect and understanding of life

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin answered in question one. Both episodes

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I heard His Voice and saw Him face to face.

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes The answer is in question number one. I heard the Voice and saw Him face to face.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes A little after I returned to life in 1982 I understood E=mc2; and God said 'let it be light', and light was made

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes He told me my son wasn't born yet and that i still have many things to do here.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably does not exist

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I don't know how to explain it.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes Sometimes my dreams are wonderful, like positive warnings of the future. The nightmares are like warnings of impending death. Almost all have happened.

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I feel peace inside

Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain It strengthened my feelings for my family, friends, life, earth, the universe.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Before taking this quiz, I read some of the experiences of others in your website. All I can tell you are the feelings I experienced: Feelings of love, independence, compassion, duty, Happiness. The closest thing I can use to explain it; the best moments at home with the family, friends, pets, and multiply to the "n" and you'll get an idea.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes My dreams and sensations when awake tend to happen a few minutes or days after they happen. Better understanding of people, animal, plants, what is happening, what we are doing to Earth. I talk to much.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes When the second experience happened, I commented on them with some friends. We all laughed. We took them as mere dreams. Then, weird dreams and sensations begin to appear and happened. I dreamed my brother's death. He died three days later. I dreamed my father's death. He died a few days later. Three weeks ago a dream scared me and talked to a friend who is a psychologist. I went to a Catholic church to talk to a priest. He absolved me from sin but, I think he didn't believe it. Last two Saturday's I went to mass in the Catholic church and the last two Sunday's with my wife to her Baptist church. My last nightmare was last night and the numbers 7 and three woke me up.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Another NDE.

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Help. Can anyone explain it to me and is cremation a good idea?

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Let me think about it. I found you today. I have to analyze it. Thanks for listening.