I do not know how to describe - that is the problem. It was as if I was walking out in the universe with an infinite softness, peace, knowledge of my soul going on - peace and more peace, I loved it.
Date NDE Occurred: 'March 8, 2001'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-relatedAllergic reaction Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Post-surgical respiratory/cardiac arrest.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I don't know.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
No time dimension - infinite, always had been, and always would be.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Just being able to see the whole universe and the stars. It was as if I was walking out among the stars and all that had come before and would come after.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't know.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The whole universe
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Wonder!!!!!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I lost my faith in God for years. It is just now coming back. I was furious at God for bringing me back. I wanted to stay. I was horribly ill with heart problems, kidney problems, brain damage, seizures, hypertension, and hypertensive retinopathy from all the damage. I wish they had just left me there.
What is your religion now? Liberal None
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I lost my faith in God for years. It is just now coming back. I was furious at God for bringing me back. I wanted to stay. I was horribly ill with heart problems, kidney problems, brain damage, seizures, hypertension, and hypertensive retinopathy from all the damage. I wish they had just left me there.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Just a sense of knowing, not in an arrogant way but in a joyful, wondrous way.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have no patience with people anymore.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The beauty, depth, serenity, infinite peace, wonder, space, what I saw. How much I did not want to come back, not being able to get back into my body, correctly for years. I loved what I saw and I long for it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I had them before, lost them for years and I am now getting them back.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It was so wonderful - I want to be back.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes People do not understand. That is why I was so thrilled to learn of your website.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was real and it will be real and it is always real. I miss it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know it to be true; I do not know how it is.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Doing traditional sweat lodges.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? If I go again, I will not come back.