EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION: 

I was in the hospital with an ectopic pregnancy.  I was bleeding internally, and signs of blood poisoning were present.  On the way to the operating room, after having an injection to settle me down, I ask for a Pastor, but was turned down.   But it was all right, because I had made up my mind that if I were to die, so be it.

"Into Your Hands I place my life." I said to the Lord.   On the operating table, the nurses told me to count from 1-10.  On the count of 5, instead of continuing to count, I started to pray the "Our Father."  I did not finish it, because I was drawn into a black, and somewhat greasy, tunnel.

It was pitch-dark in the tunnel, and I felt like I was floating for a while. As I floated through the tunnel, I noticed that my abdominal pain was starting to go away.  I saw a very bright light at the end of the tunnel. I felt nice, and the thought of being dead no longer bothered me.  Near the end of the tunnel, I felt I was being pulled faster towards the light.

Faces of people who had died - some whom I recognized and some whom I did not - were shouting "NO, Go back.. Go back.. Go back!!"  After that, I heard murmuring sounds.

At the end of the tunnel, I found myself in the middle of all the those people.  I felt nice, I had no more pain, no more worries and plenty of warmth. My Daddy was also there. We were happy to see each other, but there were troubling whispers around.  Almost everyone was saying, "NO!" There was a bad vibration in the air.

The bright light had slowly transformed into a figure dressed in a white robe. Everybody became silent as the figure came towards me. The face of the figure was very bright, smiling and calm. I could even feel its warmth. The figure was not very tall - but was of average height and weight - and was neither a man nor a woman.  I asked "Are you God? or Jesus?"  I received a smiling response - "Evelyn, not yet...go back.. go back." I said that I wanted to stay with my father.  I was told, with a shaking of the head, "Evelyn, Evelyn ...not yet ...you have to go back."  The other people who were around said, "Ah/Oh!" and they smiled. I kept insisting on staying. But the figure said firmly, still with a smile, "Evelyn, you have to go back!"

I felt I was being suctioned back into the tunnel, and the pain started to return. Somebody pulled my hands, and I was out of the tunnel! I was back in the operating room, aware of the pain again. I felt like I tried to get up to leave. I noticed the nurses pressing/pumping my chest. I saw myself as "the body on the table."  Still outside of my body, I tried to pull the nurses away, and I was telling them to stop because it hurt.  However, they seemed unaware of my doing anything. Then one of them said, "She's breathing! She's back!" And, as I found myself on the table, I felt and heard myself breathe.

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  The shining Figure...I keep wondering who it was.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  "Full" consciousness and awareness of what was happening.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  NO

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  Getting up from the operating table was easy, although my wrist was tied down. I felt light and my body was floating a bit. And I could not see my feet.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  I heard suction sounds, murmurs, strange silences.

The figure did not really speak; communication was through thoughts.

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  The light was strong, bright, and piercing to the eye from a distance - but bright and cool with a kind of warmth as I got closer.

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  Before I got to the end of the tunnel, I saw some faces I did not know.  At the end of the tunnel, I saw my father, and also figures and faces, many of whom I did know.  They seemed surprised to see me there. I heard murmurs coming from them about my being there.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Uncertain

      Describe:  Since my experience, sometimes I have premonintions. For example, I can see that a person is very sick, by their strange glow. Also, I feel freezing cold and strangely weak in my whole body when a family member or a close friend is about to die.   

Also, I can control things by my anger or hatred.   My hatred for people causes them to get sick and sometimes die, or have misfortunes befall them.

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes.

      Describe:  People either did not believe me, or they were very doubtful.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The best part was seeing my father, and the worst part was leaving him behind

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  That experience has been very vivid to this day.

 Also, God (or the figure) communicated by thoughts.

God is neither a HE or a SHE.

I felt appreciation of this life.

Death is no longer a frightening subject for me.

Death is a part of life.

I sensed the presence of others (not alive) in the room.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  My experience is not a dream, nor a product of my imagination.  It is still very vivid in my memory. I seek out things to read which talk about experiences like mine, because I get comfort from knowing that I am not the only one.