Debra's NDE

Other conditions around the time of experience:

      Hit by a car while walking across a cross walk, back injury and unconfirmed complication pregnancy (barely 4-6 weeks. Pregnancy yet confirmed. Pregnancy was not confirmed during 1 mo. hospital stay several test ran always showed neg. - internal bleeding occurring whole time while in back traction.

Experience description:  

      The initial experience began when I had been released from the hospital and was staying at my parents for their help with me.  We had company that day and I had a 3 sided walker I had to use.  I felt nauseated and got up to go to the restroom to vomit.  But as I stood up, I passed out.  This is when I entered a dark area, not so much like a tunnel, it really didn't feel closed in but more like a dark big space/area...I was met my my husbands father whom I had never met but who had died 3 months after I began dating his son.  I went to his funeral but never saw or spoke with him.  However, it was he that met me on the other side and held my hand.  I felt other presences around me but could not distinguish them.  At the end of the darkness like looking outward towards a distance there was what seemed to be a mountain and behind that mountain was the most outstanding beautiful light (words of our present knowledge can not describe or do justice for the lights beauty)  I wanted to go to the light very badly. I don't remember any discussion with anyone but hearing my family trying to get an ambulance to the apt. and my father and husband arguing and my mother panicking and changing her cloths to go with me in the ambulance to the hospital.  I felt no desire or need to return to them even though they were in a panic and scared for me.  I just knew that all was going to be OK and that they too would be OK.  There was a great sense of peace and relief.  Like all worries or responsibilities did not exist or were meaningless. I knew I was with my God and I did not want to return to my earthly body and family.  I looked back at the light once again and the next moment I was returned to my body.  It was tingling all over like if you lay on your arm to long and the blood is cut off and then you straighten it out and it begins to tingle as the blood flows back into it.  The ambulance came and took me to the hospital and surgery was performed for a tubular pregnancy.  I had almost bleed to death internally.  Having only 1 pint of blood left in my body by the time I reached the hospital.  I was very angry after that at my God because I did not understand why I had to come back.  Now I am wiser and know there were and still are things yet for me to do and when I have finished, I will return to the love of my higher power, my God.  

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:   No  

Was the experience difficult to express in words?   Yes

What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?   We in this realm of existence do not have the capacity to have complete comprehension of the true existence or experience that awaits after this life experience has terminated.  Our vocabulary and spiritual abilities are for a lack of putting in any other way, kindergarten in understanding. We in human form can no way comprehend, feel, understand, see, emerge ourselves in what exists for us in such an uncomplicated purifying way of complete emergence of oneself as being one in the light of the purist of the most overwhelming possible expression of love.  At the time of my experience, this was not talked of by most and considered the work of the devil so to speak...I spoke to no one for several years.  I was mad at God for not letting me stay.  I knew where I was and did not want to leave.  However, today I have a better understanding of my gift of experience and am grateful of the continued life I am living.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?   Yes

  Describe:   Internal Bleeding. - I almost bleed to death due to what turned out to be an tubal pregnancy may or may not have had anything to do with the impact of the car. No one knows.  I had only 1 pint of blood in my body when I was rushed back to the hospital for surgery as I had been released and out for about 1 week while the bleeding continued.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?   I was unconscious through the whole experience.

Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO it was not a dream, not in anyway.  I even tried to tell a catholic monk of my experience and he tried to tell me it was of the devils work.....to bad for him he hasn't had an opportunity to experience it....it would change his way of thinking.  Needless to say...I don't go to that church or any church for that matter.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?   Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:   I was not on the earth realm as we feel it or know it.  I was in a dark void without any ground to stand on as there was no need for it.  My family felt to me like I was hearing them through a TV  or radio at a distance.  I also felt as though I was just through an entrance of some kind, just greeted by my husbands father who took my hand.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Pure love, peace, all knowing things would be good and OK, no pain, no worry, no concern to be with my earthly family as they would be OK also.  No attachment to them at all or need to be with them.  I did not want to return, a feeling like one might have if floating on a cloud with a gentle breeze blowing or like lying in the powerful hands of love with complete contentedness and no desire for more.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?   No, I do not remember any sounds or noises.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?   Yes

Describe:   It was dark like a void area not necessarily like a tunnel, no real boundaries did I feel.  Just that the darkness went on for a little ways and the light was at the end of this darkness.

Did you see a light?   Yes

    Describe:   I saw a light that if viewed by the human eye would probably blind a normal human. It's beauty, gracefulness, brilliance was beyond words of our human comprehension.  We cannot even describe once returned to our bodies the illumination or feelings that we are consumed by in seeing or being in this light.  It is a light that can only be viewed in spirit.  Not with the human naked eye because it could not be understood.  

Did you meet or see any other beings?   Yes

Describe:   I was met by my husbands father who had passed away some years prior.  I did not meet him in this world or talk with him. However, I did attend his funeral.  I had been dating his son for about 3 months at that time.  But I knew it was him that met me on the other side and took my hand.  I did feel other presences around me but did not recognize them.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?   No

  Describe:   No, but I wish I could have.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?   No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

Describe:   Time did not exist.  There was a sense of great unimportance regarding time.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   Yes

Describe:   That all would be OK, that there was nothing worry about.  All and everything would be as it should be.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you become aware of future events?   No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?   Uncertain

 Describe:   I do not remember any discussion, I do remember a great hesitation on my part to return to my body.  I truly did not want to return but for what reason I'm not sure I was sent back, so I believe there was some discussion although I don't remember it.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes

Describe:   As a massage therapist, some say I have the ability to heal.  There have been some instances that clue me into this but I give all credit to my higher power.  My being the instrument by which his power gives to that individual their needs, whatever that may be.  I have by several Hispanic older people been called kunandera (healer).  I leave this to my higher power to make it so.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

 Describe:   It definitely put me on my spiritual path of self growth.  Sometimes it has been very very difficult and at times very rewarding.  But either way always spiritual.  

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?   Through the years and continued study, I have made many changes in all the above.  And I can see that as time continues to pass more and more changes will continue in order for me to grow spiritually and to help others to find their ways back to or on their own spiritual path.

Have you shared this experience with others?   Yes

Describe:   Most often they are awed and what to share what I felt.  I believe that for some it did influence their immediately belief systems and they began to broaden their perspectives of what God is really about.  

What emotions did you experience following your experience?   Anger at first for having to return.  I wanted so much to stay and go to the light. For 3 months I did not pray.  Now I am grateful for having the opportunity to return and continue my journey...Many good things have come to me.  Life is very beautiful and I have been given the gift to see this beauty in every small insignificant particle that exist and to see how easy it is for human kind to loose its connection with their Godself through the supposed needs and expectations of the world and of the "I". To find forgiveness for those who have not had the gracious opportunity that I was given to enable me to understand that each of us has a path, choices to make, destiny to follow and that as humans we do make mistakes and need to be given love and forgiveness no matter what the error as we all walk a path of spirituality...some with their eyes open, some with their eyes closed.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?   I think the best part of the immediate experience was the feeling of total peace and tranquility and seeing the love light of God.  The worse being having to return without fully understanding at that time why.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?   One thing I would like to say.  We as humans celebrate the birth of a new born child. We throw parties and invite family and friends to witness the entrance of the newborn child.  This obviously beautiful gift that has been loaned to us to raise to the best of our ability in the ways of love.  WHY! Do we have such a hard time discussing with a loved one, a friend or even a stranger at the moment of their death what they feel, are they scared, why do we run from this responsibility of helping others to transcend or to be born into still another world, a better world of love, peace, joy.....spiritual freedom.  I feel it is wrong for us to turn our backs on those dying and deny them if they so choose to talk of their feelings no matter what they might me.  Not for us to run or change the subject or talk about the weather or whatever.....They deserve to have someone to share their feelings with on their death bed or if you will their bed of rebirth....As a new born baby truly does not know it is being born into this life realm it must be very frightening for them during the birth after living in a world of their mothers stomach of 9 months and now they must leave....how scary this must be for them.  And we rejoice 

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes

Describe:   Do not take advantage of any precious moment in your life.  To tell those you love them each day.  Small things are just small things.  One never knows when you will be called to enter into the next spiritual realm....It only takes a second to change ones life.  Always if possible, do what you can to make others feel good about themselves, even a small word to a stranger may make the difference in their life for the rest of their life. And maybe, just maybe they will follow your example and spread some love to someone else who may be in desperate need.  The gift of love, no matter how small it may seem is never small.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes

Explain:   I believe that your questions were very thorough and that I answered them to the best of my ability.