D's NDE

Experience description: 

In March of 1978, I found myself laying on a bed.  This was strange because 2 seconds before -- I seemed to have been laying in a pool of blood with massive injuries to my physical body.  I arose from the bed and stared at my left hand. It was now re-attached to my wrist.  A few seconds ago, the hand had been missing among the rubble of my wrecked car.  As I struggled to remember what had just happened -- it seemed as if everything was disappearing.  I had an understanding of events that had just transpired -- but the details where leaving my conscious mind.  I struggled to hold on to the memory as it evaporated from my sight.  I was left with only a memory of laying in a pool of blood with my left hand separated from my wrist and my lower section of my body laying in what used to be the back section of the car I had been traveling in. 

I was in shock.  How could I travel though time and space in a matter of a few seconds.  It had been 10 PM when I crashed the car.  It was now 10 AM as I sit up in the bed looking at my left wrist and my two legs.  I wanted to know who and how the damaged had been repaired.  It was not a dream but yet I was laying in a bed as if I had been asleep.  My mind was as connected to the 10 AM and the 1O PM as if nothing had happened between the 12 hours.  I knew differently.

I got up and ran toward the living room of the house.  I asked my Mom what had just happened to me.  She was as confused by my statements as I was confused by the missing time.  She insisted that I had a dream.  I told her that I knew the difference between looking at my hand in a dream and looking at my hand while I was awake. 

I said,

"As I look at my hand now -- I have a memory of a few seconds ago when it was nothing more than a bloody stump.  It was too real and the image in my mind is to real and vivid to be a dream. It was real. My whole body was split in half. My legs where gone. I was desperately trying to hold my insides in with my stump of an arm while I reached for my legs with my good right hand.  The right hand was still on.  It was real.  How did anyone ever fix something like that?  How did you all find me.  I was 5 miles outside of town in the middle of no where.  How did an ambulance find me?  I was sitting in the middle of a cotton field.  I don't see how they found me and fixed me up like nothing happened."

My Mom kept insisting that nothing did happen. I then remembered seeing my car. I only had the car for a few months.  It was my pride and joy.  I ran to the front door and found it sitting in the drive way shinning like it had just rolled off the showroom floor. (It was 3 years old.)  My Mom remarked how clean it looked.  It didn't shine.  It sparkled as if stardust had been mixed in with the wax. I ran to the car and looked all over for signs that it had been sitting in a cotton field after crashing at 125 M.P.H.  There was not a scratch, spot, or speck of dirt to be found any where.  I opened the hood and even the engine sparkled.  There wasn't a spot of oil or grime any where.  I told my Mom,  "THIS IS NOT MY CAR!  I know my car and this is not the one I was driving yesterday." 

I spent an hour talking to my Mom.  I finally came to the conclusion that I had been in a major accident. I thought the month was October.  She told me it was March.  I concluded that I had been in a major accident in October and had laid in a coma somewhere while they fixed my body and my car.  They didn't want to face the bad feelings of the injuries and decided to make as if nothing had happened.  To go forward and get on and not look back at the bad of the past.  That was the only thing my mind could make sense of. 

I tried and tried to talk to friends and family about my so called coma.  Everyone denied that I had been in an accident or a coma.  They knew what they knew and I knew what I knew.  They where hiding something.  I always got the impression of some sort of quilt.  It turns out that a friend of mine had committed suicide on the very road I said I had crashed on.  I had no memory of any friend.  They mentioned his name and it drew a blank.  I asked and they duck the issue.  They wanted to forget something and they wanted me to leave the questions alone.  Everyone was glad that I couldn't remember the last 5 months.  This only added fuel to the fire of my suspicion that they where not being truthful with me. 

I took a family member and several friends out to the road.  There was an imprint in the ditch of a car grill.  There was massive destruction of the cotton field but no metal of the wreckage.  Someone told me that I was going though a lot of trouble to pull a hoax. 

Some more memories poured into my mind over the weeks.  I had crashed the car and when it came to a stop... I had been cut up badly by the windshield and flying glass.  I screamed out for "God" to help me.  Then I stood outside of my car.  I felt naked because I didn't have clothes on anymore.  My first thought was that I had been thrown from the car and had imagined the bloody scene in the car.  I then thought how I was going to get home and explain how come I was naked.  I looked at my car and it was totaled.  There was steam coming from the front of the car.  I could not tell it was the hood because of the condition of the steel.  It was so mangled and torn it didn't even look like a car. It looked like a small ball. I saw a tire come flying from the sky and hit the ground and roll away.  Then the thought hit me that my dead body was inside the car.  Something told me to go and look and I declined.  I had already seen what it looked like and I didn't want to see it again.  That is when I realized I had died.  I was no longer in the physical body.  Just then, I heard a noise.  It sounded like wild animals growling and laughing.  They sounded like laughing hyena's.  I could see them in the distance running toward me.  I cried out to "God" for help.  I started floating toward the sky or upwards. 

It was then that I remembered I had a goal.  I was looking for a friend who was stuck on the other side of death's door. He had not been able to make it to "God."  I was there to get him and take him to "God" and beg for forgiveness on his behalf. I told this force that was lifting me upwards to let go and let me get at them nasty creatures.  I was going to kick everyone of them in the butt to get to my friend.  I had to get my friend before I could go to "God" and knock on heavens door.  Something told me to let go and stop struggling.  I said, "I am not going anyway without my friend."  A voice said, "Your friend is with you as you speak.  Turn and see for yourself."  I turned and I was carrying my friend on my back.  I shouted out a victory cry and zoomed upwards. 

I traveled at a 45 degree angle until I reached a light.  It was like a laser show that I could hear, feel, see, touch, smell, and taste.  It was marvelous. When I reached a level ... I zoomed forward and merged into a light.

That is all I could remember in 1978.  I told everyone I could that I had taken a rocket ride to heaven.  People asked who my friend was and I told them I didn't know.  I only referred to him as my friend.  When I turned to look behind me -- all I could see was his back.  His back was to my back.  I couldn't see his face and only heard his voice.  I had no idea who it was.

For months -- I talked about this experience.  People said that what ever it was -- it had changed my personality.  They said I was a different person in the same body.  They still never told me about this friend of mine who died. I had no idea why he took his life.  He was a total mystery to me.  No one ever believed me when I told them I had been in a major car wreck, died and then somehow came back to life.  UNTIL

1988.  I was in a slight mishap that sent me to the hospital in an ambulance. I awoke again with 12 hours missing from my life.  I had no idea how, or why I was in the hospital.  The Doctor came in and told me that I had fallen on an old injury.  He wanted to talk about that old injury.  He told me that he had found evidence of the most remarkable surgery he had ever seen.  He told me that it looked like I had been mutilated inside and then put back together somehow.  He said that the surgical scars defied anything he had ever witnessed before.  I asked him if it looked like damage that might have been done after rolling around in a car at 125 M.P.H. --  He told me that is exactly what he seemed to be looking at.  I told him that I had always known that it happened but people tried to convince me that it didn't.  The Doctor wanted me to find the Doctor who had done the surgery to repair the damage he saw evidence of.  I told him it would do no good.  I had already called every hospital in my old home-town looking for information and no one had any.  It was like it never happened. I told the Doctor that he was the first person in my life who ever believed me.  He told me to allow him to show  my files to the world and everyone in the world would believe me. 

I told him that I would pray about it and see what my dreams told me to do.  I came back and told him that I couldn't show them until 1999.  I had to wait for a promise to come true first.  The Doctor was disappointed, but I told him I had to follow after my own heart and remained true to my visions and dreams.

A few months ago -- I remember both those 12 hour periods in 1978 and 1988.  I had a NDE experience during the 1988 incident also.  The paramedic who revived me later told me that I had been without vital signs for 26 minutes.  He told me that the only reason he put the oxygen mask on me was because I had talked to him while I was outside the body.  I could remember this in 1988 the next day when he asked me about it.  I can remember it now.  I was outside trying to get back in. 

I also believe in reincarnation now.  The promise I was given during both those NDE's was that my friend would be returned  to life again.  He was re-born in a new body.  I have been waiting 21 years for him to grow up.  I am supposed to extend my hand in friendship again.  The bond that existed between us can no be broken by life, death, time, space, or matter.  It was a bond within our hearts.

There is so much to my story and I am working on writing down all the details. I was told to do this during the out of body travel to the light during both my NDE's.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  The communication beyond the veil of light was without English words. It was a different type of language which was hard to express in words.  It was beyond words at times.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  Yes.  Tone's of harmony unlike any music heard before or sense

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Yes
      Describe:  I merged into the light

Did you see a light?  Yes
      Describe:  Laser like

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes
      Describe:  Yes.  Two celestial being during the 1978 NDE.  One was a female and the other a male.  There where like old friends that I recognized outside of my body.  I had an awareness of many travels and adventures together in a spiritual sense.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes
      Describe:  I asked for popcorn during this event.  You learn how your actions ripple though the lives of others.  You send out waves of anger and hatred,,,,you feel the response as it ripples though the lives of everyone it touches.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes
      Describe:  While out of the body in 1988 ... I spoke and communicated with a Paramedic who had arrived at the scene of my accident.  They had given up on reviving me back to life.  When I returned from  my travel to the light -- I shouted at him to get back to work because the job wasn't finished yet. (He had walked away to take a smoke break waiting for the Police to arrive.) 

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes
      Describe:  In the 1988 NDE -- there was a veil that gave the appearance of water. When I stepped though it-- I traveled though a dimension that had a different vibration level. The understanding, and intelligence was of a different form.

Did you become aware of future events?  Yes
      Describe:  Personal events about my future.  I have not recovered the memories of worldly events. I do believe there was information given.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes
      Describe:  After the 1988 NDE -- I was very happy.  I had been depressed and suffering from quilt because I didn't feel I was living up to my full potential. I embraced life afterwards with a renewed sense of hope.


Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes
      Describe:  In 1988, there were many witnesses.  They all told me they had been touched by events.  (They witnessed my body without life and then saw it return.) They all wanted me to write about my experience.  I promised them that I would one day because the "people" in my "dream" (NDE) had told me to.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Joy, harmony, laughter, and peace.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The lessons I was able to share  with others was the best.  The doubt and disbelief of others was the worst.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  There is so much more that I am working on writing it all down. It is massive and like trying to get an elephant though the front door of a house.  It is hard to do because it just don't fit.  (Spiritual knowledge into a physical language.)