Experience description: 
 

      The Experience:

The experience below took place in the summer of  1988

As I flew from the boat I hit the water with an incredible force, my ears rang with echoing terror as the sound of the outboard engine blades came closer. I was pounded by the bow of the boat as it struck my right side, leaving me motionless and without breath. I spun uncontrollably as the boat pushed through me, clearing its path in the icy waters. I was motionless, unable to move or breath, unaware of up from down, I felt something solid cushion me from underneath, it was then that I realized I had settled at the bottom of the lake.

  My mind began to immediately overload, a feeling of terror set in that is indescribable. My mouth opened and gasped for air only to take in a huge amount water. I could feel it enter my body rushing in, taking over, and claiming its new territory. I closed my eyes, and realized that the forced acceptance of the situation allowed my ego to become completely stripped (my interpretation of the feeling and effect). A feeling of calmness now surrounded me as if coming to terms with a lifelong event that ruled me for so long. I was powerless and I accepted it. It was what it was and I needed nothing more that that. I then made a seamless transition to another space. I found myself in a void; I can only describe it as an endless plain of nothingness as if space without the stars or planets. I had no physical body and saw through something other that of a set of eyes, everything seemed to be coming, or existing from the same complete source which I now seemed to be a part of, I was no longer aware of, nor needed to be aware of the mechanics of what was taking place for all was excepted for what it was, and what it existed as. I was immediately bombarded with information that came to me from all directions, through multiple dimension (as so it seemed) The information rushed me as if this was to the be the last stages of some type of completion perfecting the harmony in which I was now a part of. It was, as if my being had become a vacuum, opening up allowing everything that ever was, or was to ever be inside. Within what seemed to be a blink of an eye the information retention was over. I can only do my best at this point to explain what took place, for words fall miles short of the actual feeling. I will do my best to explain it as this. I now understood everything that ever was or was to ever be, so the need of neither thought nor question was no longer. I was complete; I was what I believe the highest existence of peace that could ever be, for my mind was silent and I was simply being, and nothing more. I was a part of everything that ever was and with that I had no expectations nor thought, I was existing within everything and had no form or shape, just a complete perfect state of being.

  I bobbed to the top of the lake, a whisper of breath shot back into me, my eyes opened and I was a changed person.

  After this experience I had no change or "enlightened" feeling. I did however remember the experience and for a short time everything seemed to be "polished up" the world held a much more vibrant color... For the following 3 years I became obsessed with finding the source of the feeling which I had had during the experience, I soon fell into a massive depression  after finding no answers. I had at this point decided to take my life due to the massive amounts of anxiety I was going through. I called my father and expressed my apologies for what I was then going to do. After getting off the phone I crumbled down to the floor and immediately saw myself below me, I was then transported to a plane, in a high place, and bright place which had no effect to sight. I had no physical form and was able to see in a 360 degree view. I entered (moved, floated) into a wooden form what seemed to be an incredibly huge hall occupied by hundreds of people, they took no notice of me as I moved past them to the right along side the east wall. I took notice in a huge framed picture of what we currently notice as Christ. Immediately I noticed small circular colors bouncing off the walls directly in front of me and all around me. I began to look around and noticed the people had risen looking to the North. The colors now were incredible, millions of them all dancing and weaving becoming a massive single source emitting a white pearl bright pearl color, as I began to look to the source which seemed to be hard right judging by the the peoples view I was stopped by some opposing "gentle" force. At that immediate moment it was as if I knew this was deathly real. I could feel anxiety enter me at that point, and immediately it was hushed by a source that seemed to caress me as if a hand had been place underneath my existence, I began being pulled back still not able to turn far enough to see the source, I began going for the source, nothing mattered at that point excepting making it to the source. I was then communicated with and told that this was not my time. I was told that what I was going through (this was not in words, but merely communicated to me directly through my subconscious) didn't matter, what mattered is that I understood the experience, and took it as nothing more but an experience. I explain it best as this. I was standing on a cliff of life, my choices as i felt were to jump off, or step back and re-evaluate the situation. The source simply explained to me that neither was the answer, the answer was to understand it as only an experience and nothing more and the cycle would be complete. With that I gasped and took in air, sitting up immediately now being back in my physical body. My anxiety was over, and a huge appreciation for life was now present. Again the world shined as if all the colors has been polished. I could smell the air and feel its existence, I brushed up against plants and trees feeling there being and what I believe there emotions, my compassion for life and all living things shot through the roof. I gained a knowledge unknown to me and to date have been able to perceive life from a complete different view, my perception is still as it was much broader, my information retention  has been incredible learning most aspects of current technology with no schooling whatsoever, there is so much to say, but I can only hope this has created an inspiration for all who have read this. I have hid this experience for so long and now wish to get it out, to all. I do not fear death and know that the transition to it is seamless and painless. I have come to understand many many things about life, and its deepest workings. We know when our time will come we are just not "present" for instance before an accident things slow down, almost stop, as if the movie we have been in slows down and we are able to see it frame-by-frame. At this point we are going through an index, as if to find out if this is our time, the body knows as does the wholeness of the being, if time is then then the death takes place seamless to the body, if the time is not the body goes through the experience and the movie speeds back up. I with help will hopefully right about the insights I have gained and hope to share them with you all. I hope to find a compassionate being that will help me with the path.

Namaste,

Burke

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Yes

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  The information which was received, the way it was received, and knowledge that was held during the experience and the result of it. (I was bombarded with packets of information all coming through multiple dimensions instantaneously)

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  I was hit by a boat and sank to the bottom of the lake.  

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was "present"

Was the experience dream like in any way?  not in any way

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I had no physical form and could see in a 360 degree fashion.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  acceptance, then simply "being"

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  it was silent, as was the normal ongoing chattering in my mind.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes the second experience I saw light, but through shooting, bouncing colors, all collecting to a single bright pearl white source

Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  second experience I saw countless people

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  Yes

      Describe:  Yes the review came to me with the bombardment of the information I received in the first experience, I was simply more of a passing which went through and into me allowing me to create an end and then a beginning of being it seemed

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  No

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  I experienced beauty in everything, the void, and other, as the experiences above describe.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  Please read the experience it explains a small part of the insights on life I gained.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  In the second experience I was not "allowed" to see the source of the emitting light energy.

Did you become aware of future events?  Uncertain

Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  See second experience.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Astral Projection ability.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Read above.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Read above.

Have you shared this experience with others?  No response

      Describe:  I am just now able to share with many

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  compassion, love and hope.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Te best as the feeling of being complete

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I hope to share more soon.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am to help

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes