Experience description: 

      When it happened, I experienced the feeling of total relaxation and the feeling of sort of disembodiment.  The accident had broken the seat loose and I was trapped in the seat belt.  My head had been banged around and I had numerous head injuries that resulted from being tossed around while the truck was folded up similar to an accordion.  I never recovered at the scene of the accident completely because it seemed like more of a dream than anything else.  As I relived the experience itself, things started to make sense.  I was at, for lack of a better word, a junction.  I was NOT in human form, I was pure energy and I was drawn to a huge white and golden light that seemed to encompass the whole universe.  As I was at this "junction", I felt a drawing sensation that seemed to be this, imagine throwing an egg on your ceiling and it has a very thin strip of egg white that goes from your ceiling to the floor.  My body was the floor and the "other" place was the ceiling.  I was connected to both.  As I touched the place where I saw the other universe, it began to draw me towards it and as it did, it was like an experience of what people call the eye of the storm, a device that has a static electric field that when you touch the glass, the static electricity is drawn to your fingers.  As the strands of electricity touched me, I felt instantly as if I knew everything, experienced the whole of creation.  No heaven like what the Christian philosophy or any other religion states, no hell, just the purity of the universe as a whole.  The energy there was NOT only "human" in nature, all of the life here on earth was there that had been past and present, which to me, explained the concepts of human reproduction and the feelings that some people get about reincarnation.  This was to me the essence of human, animal, and even plant life.  As the paramedics, and this is purely conjecture, applied the defibrillator to my heart, the connection between the other place and the world began to break down and I was drawn back to my own body.  At first I was angry, but then I began to understand WHY I came back, it was simply not my time.  I had tasted death and no longer had any fear of it, but then it hit me that I should now try to experience LIFE, which is the real mystery.  When I was later released from the hospital, a Catholic priest contacted me and wanted an accounting of what I had experienced and when it was not what he wanted me to tell him, he got upset and warned me not to tell other people about what had happened to me because it was against HIS belief of what God was.  I KNOW there is a Spirit, but it's neither male or female, it just is, and that's the simplicity of it all.  He said that I just experienced loose electrical energy scrambling around my brain and that if I prayed to God and asked him to enter my life and show me his true purpose that I would be "saved".  I told him that I felt that his religion was preaching a lie to the mass public and that what I had experienced was the truth about life and it's beginnings.  As I was drawn back to my body, I began to forget all that I had experienced and I always felt this was due to my brain not being able to handle all that I had experienced, but I did remember the fundamentals of what I had experienced.  I felt that there had been an exchange of understandings that I will never forget and what I believe in now is truth in it's purest form and universally simple.  Life is the mystery and death is but a step towards another form of existence.  There was only a calm that I posses now that allows me to see the world and all the life in it as a joy, not some psychic or religious phenomenon.  A professor that I am doing a contract study with now in college says that he believes I had touched the heart of creation, maybe he's right, but for now, I feel like my life has renewed and open perspectives that see life as a gift and a blessing.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  It wasn't hard to express but the words were hard to find to describe the actual experience.  I felt I was completely pain-free.  When the paramedics used the defibrillators on me, I felt the first shock as extremely mild, the last one that brought me to full confused consciousness was very painful.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  I was struck from the rear by a 1974 Chevrolet Caprice classic at 65mph.  I was in a brand new Toyota pick-up.

 What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  I was completely dead, no vital signs of any kind, yet I could sense everything all at once.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  Only when I came out of it in the hospital, and I started to piece it together one day at a time.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  I felt that I was still in my body, yet between both realms.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Total peace, relaxation, wonder, and awe.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  Every thing and yet, it was easy to distinguish distinct properties within my expaned consciousness.  I could "feel" everything as well.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  Uncertain

      Describe:  It was more like being linked to two different junctions at the same time

 Did you see a light?  Yes

      Describe:  It was a sort of golden light that was enveloping a pure white light that was connected to all the strands of energy within the system

 Did you meet or see any other beings?  Yes

      Describe:  They were just as I described in the earlier notations, they were energy strands that linked and formed, and held all the essence of all that presently exist and in the past as well.  I don't know why or how I know this, I just do.

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Yes

      Describe:  I had talked to other people about this experience and they admitted that they felt pretty much the way I did, but then felt that if they disputed what their religion believed in, it would cast them in unfavorable light with their family and friends or make them some sort of an outcast in society. 

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  As stated earlier.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Time is a man-made concept, not part of the universal continuum, there was simply no time where I was and it didn't exist.

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  As I have stated earlier, there was a sort of exchange of "knowing".

   Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  Yes

      Describe:  The boundary junction is the only link I felt or sensed at the time of my accident.

 Did you become aware of future events?  No

 Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I seemed to be able to read people much better, some people felt as if I "knew" more about them after first meeting them than they wanted me to know.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  As I stated earlier, I seemed to develop a special knowledge that was a direct result of a probable exchange of energy.

 Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I encourage people to enjoy life to the fullest, to NEVER fail to tell someone you love them because it can all change in a fraction of a second.  To love someone is the greatest gift any person can share.

 Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Every time I can and use it to help people that feel that life is not worth living because it is the MOST precious gift nature ever bestowed on us.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  All of them except pain, for some reason that was not there.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Seeing what I saw and experiencing it, and not being able to allow others to experience what I had.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  Life is for living, humankind is the only species that feels god-like because of total misconceptions about Illusionary dominion in regards to our place in scheme of things.  Our laws are not coinciding with natural laws that we can't even begin to understand, and besides that, the unknown is not frightening, it's a wonderful mystery that eventually we all will understand and be a part of.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I am a deeper more Spiritual person now, I live to love and love to live.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Meditation is the only source that even remotely brings me close to it.  I do not partake of any drugs other than what is prescribed to me by a licensed physician.