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Bette's NDE |
Experience description:
Mine was in 1953,when I was 20 yrs old. I was having a baby. After 5 hrs on
the delivery table I was near death, needed blood and there was none in the
small town where I lived. At that time the dr decided to put me in an
ambulance and send me to Vanderbilt Hosp in Nashville, 25 mi away. This was
around midnight I think. The old ambulances were built like a hearse, and
my husband was afraid to be that close to me when I died, so my mother
climbed in beside me. The NDE started, while they were trying to decide
about sending me, of course the dr thought that I had slipped into a coma-I
was listening to every word. When the funeral director arrived (he was also the
ambulance driver) with all that was going on, laying on my back with
my eyes shut-I could see his feet and that his shoes laces were not tied,
and he had on no socks!! That really bothered me because I was afraid that
he would trip and fall. They had to wheel me thru the waiting room and I
could hear all the comments-my mother-in-law kept repeating-"
she’s dead-look how her eyes have rolled back in her head". I was
seeing nothing at the time-all black. When they put me in the
ambulance-then I was floating between the top and my body. I was apparently
really moaning and I could hear that- all the time I was thinking-I
wish she would be quiet”. It was like, my body was someone else and I
thought of it as a distraction and just wanted it to be quiet! I could hear
my mother talking to my body and telling it, that we would soon be
there-The ambulance was going full blast with siren on, and I remember
seeing railroad tracks ahead and thinking that he should slow down-I
felt no pain, but my body was still making a racket. When we got there they
were waiting for me and 5 men rolled me into the elevator and then straight
into the delivery room-at this time I went straight to the ceiling and
watched as if I were watching tv. I felt so good and so (no words)-I guess
serene would come close. I absolutely had no interest in the body or about
the baby. I did not see all the people in the waiting room that had
followed me there, nor did I think about them. When I was floating in the
room I was looking down-then all of a sudden I was going backward and up at
a fast rate, then with out feeling it I suddenly was going forward-I did
not think of it as a tunnel, but it was dark and there was a brilliant
white light ahead and I really wanted to hurry and get there. The only
sound was like a whirling noise. I awoke the next day in intensive
care with the dr sitting beside my bed, I was so excited that I wanted
to tell him about this wonderful experience and he just smiled and patted
my hand and started telling me about my baby. He said that he wanted
to prepare me for when I saw him-He had been in the birth canal so long
that his head was all squished and came to a point on top-he said also that
he was afraid there may be brain damage (I had been in labor for a wk,
before all this started). Well it turned out that he had an IQ of 160.He
was born the Sunday after Easter and he was killed the Sunday after Easter
25 yrs later-in a plane crash in Alaska, where he was a bush pilot. He
had several very close calls in various ways before he died. How did
it change me? Before the NDE I was a Sunday school teacher in a very strict fundamental
church. After the NDE I knew that nothing was like I had always believed- I
became metaphysical overnight-it was like osmosis-there were no books,
nothing was even whispered like my "knowing”. I still wanted to
inform every one that I came in contact with about this wonderful
experience. Until the word got around that it was me-not the baby that had
brain damage. So all the years before dr Moody I learned to keep my mouth
shut. I came out with knowledge that there is no death-only transition
to another level. That saved me when my only son was killed-I grieved for
me and all the people that loved him, but I knew that he had felt no
pain and no sadness, although he had a daughter born 2 wks after his death-
I only wished that he could have seen her-then I realized that he did.